Undone

I remember when I was like… 10, I found my brother’s offspring CD, and was reading the lyrics, and found that it said “ass” in it (HA!) and totally snitched to my parents. He was PISSED! 15 years later, I’m jammin’ to the same band, same songs, loving them! (Currently listening to “Want you Bad”) But the thing is 10 year old me, just didn’t know what it’s like being an adult. Maybe I should try living up to 10 year old me’s standards, but… I think sometimes we miss out on some good things in life (good music, good people) because we can’t look past what we might deem as “wrong”

Your one vice
It’s you’re too nice
Come around now can you see
Don’t get me wrong
I know you’re only being good
But that’s what’s wrong
I guess I just misunderstood

Derringer Meryl [Lyric spew?] Out

At Dinner yesterday Wudan mentioned he didn’t know the song “We Are all on Drugs” by Weezer to which I scoff. I thought my brothers LIKED good music, but apparently he’s not as obsessed with Weezer as I am. He actually accused me of singing a song from High School Musical, and i just looked at him like he needed brain surgery.

we are all on drugs

I mean, I realize that we all don’t get the chance to sit around in our rooms doing homework and listening to music anymore (sad, on the music front anyway) but it’s no excuse to become poorly in touch with one of the most awesomest bands ever! I admit that I have became quite the weezer geek. I am thinking that Weezer has started to replace my love affair with Twilight (Which i would say has burned hot and heavy for a while) and now I have found a new (probably unhealthy) obsession.

Hope everyone had a great thanksgiving. Ours was great!

Derringer Meryl [Something Something] Out

So I have to say that not a lot gets under my skin. Most of everything that does involves talking. Or I guess to be more broad, the auditory noises that people consider to be speaking in this day and age.  I cannot tell you how many times I remember my Debate teacher talking about how real communication isn’t JUST about being a great speaker, It’s also about being a great listener. I am usually pretty eloquent in my mind, but in reality I’m a much better listener than I am a speaker. I wish people could listen to what people are saying more clearly.

This is the number one pet peeve I have. I have to admit, I’m not always captain attentive. I’m not always 100% on things, but when it’s important, i listen. To me, not listening is a sign of disrespect, and It gets me all bent out of joint. I could scream after repeating myself a few times. I don’t like listening to myself talk. I only on occasionally will ramble on to fill the space of dead air. I’d rather listen to music, but I think, to a point, everyone deserves to be listened to … I feel like sometimes I’m not listened to, and not to strike an too familiar chord, I don’t mean I’m a wounded and hurt that my family isn’t oohing and ahhing over my verbal spewings, because honestly, i don’t want to be patronized. I just want to legitimately be heard when it’s important. Wouldn’t you?

Among all my other auditory annoyances are people who say HUH? like they are about to vomit the word. It’s disgusting. If you’d like an auditory of it, I’ll say it for you in the most obnoxious voice ever. Seriously. You hear the word HUH at least 40 times a day in a way that sounds like dry heaving … you’d want to stab the next person who said it too. I hate when people JUST WONT STOP TALKING. It’s not communication unless both sides are participating. I hate it when people hum while they are waiting for a short period of time (like less than 2 minutes) it’s not like you’ve had time to get SO bored that you need to HUM constantly, especially in my ear. SO STOP. People who talk TOO loud, I suppose with this I should include those who LAUGH too loud. I like things to go where they belong. Work CAN be fun, but not I drank $200 worth of alcohol and now I think everything is SOOO Dang funny… Also I hate people who feel the need to stand behind my cubical and talk.  I don’t have four walls, I have two. and 1/4th. I’m in the hallway.  I wish people would just sit down and shut up!

I think my ADD is particularly auditory. I am not so distracted by light or motion as I am auditory things. I use music to block it out a lot.  I LOVE music. 😀

Derringer Meryl [music gets the best of me] out

Today I feel very inspired to start a new page. A page of lists. First will be my very serious list of very favorite songs.

All Inspired today because of Creep by Radiohead. I love this song (It was first performed on TV on the Arsenio Hall Show.. In like 1993) it’s a pretty enduring song. I think it has this interesting blend of … 1950’s, 60’s and 90’s that make it desirable. it’s like the perfect song. It’s got a bit of grunge, a little… bit of all the good stuff, you Know? I love it. Serious. Which is crazy– you’d think my favorite song changes each week with how much I seriously love music (and I do, for someone who is pretty musically impared. I can sing, but not overly well…) I hope to be forever listening to new music and hope that the point at which i reach the “THIS IS TOO DANG LOUD” will be well into my 60’s. 🙂 Lots of popular music really rocks my socks. I love weezer, and I even like the Police (though they’re not really a band anymore) TMBG, fall out boy,  etc etc…

My favorite song? Brandy, By the Looking Glass. 😉 Yep
Derringer Meryl [music!] out

Ok, So I love this song, I probably shouldn’t, but I really enjoy it 3OH!3 Don\’t Trust Me

I’m feeling: A bit Jaded.

I’m super tired, Katie woke up this morning at 5:30 or so, and was very very grouchy and active. I tried to sleep through it, but it’s hard. Poor Katie has parents who sleep all the time. I’m hoping I can scrape some energy together tonight to cook dinner (ravioli again)

we got my car fixed. It was the crankshaft. Apparently the sensor wasn’t responding aaand… It was making things weird. The car wouldn’t start twice, and died in an intersection once. I’m glad the car is working again.

I was excited for the Twilight movie, like REALLY excited, but then again — I remembered I can’t just leave Katie at home, so I won’t be going to see it on opening night. Not that anyone really cares– Most people (Besides drama queen, and jen, and my mom) don’t even read Twilight. But I love it.

I did a mini- Christmas list. I don’t really want that much this year. I can’t think of anything really. I’m sure Scott will come up with something good. He always wants such specific things that I can’t ever get it right w/o a Christmas list.  You know what I would love to have in my stocking?

Yeah I know I”m crazy. I love having coffee mate in my Hot Chocolate (my preferred Beverage for the holiday season) I’m getting really stoked about Christmas this year. I realize it’s not even Past Halloween — and that i”m totally jumping the gun. But what can I say– I love the holiday season.

I’ve been trying to debate on how we’re working out Thanksgiving this year. I thought about inviting both Scott’s and my family’s over for thanksgiving, but as I was discussing it with Jen, that’s 18 people! I’m not sure where I could fit 18 people. Then I thought Well Maybe I could just do Scott’s family since we all promised Lorna having Thanksgiving with her this year… But then I felt bad about not having thanksgiving with both families. If I were to fix even a portion of thanksgiving at our house, i would be far too tired to drive up to SLC to have pie, or even just to hang out. I feel torn in a way. Since Christmas is mostly Presents/hanging out and not eating, we make it to both family’s houses easily. But eating and cleaning at our own house and then going up to SLC– I’m exhausted just thinking about it. I’m not sure what I”m going to do, I got frazzled just making chicken enchillada’s for Conference. :-S And I won’t even discuss the hockey puck cinnamon roll disaster. STUPID CINNAMON ROLLS! I’ll KILL THEM!

I’m Slowly plugging away at transferring my entries over. SLOW and steady. 😉 Maybe by the end of october? I sure hope so. I need to take and get Katie’s pictures taken in her Little bo peep costume. We’re going up to the Zoo on Saturday, and then probably to mom and Dad’s 😉 So they can see her costume too.  (or maybe the other way around? I’m not sure. So indecisive today.)

Have I mentioned I have amazing views from my desk window? I can see such pretty foliage outside, it’s awesome.

Derringer Meryl [ The horror of our Love]