Undone

Because i’m a freak, geek, obsessive, odd and so on (none of which are bad… just different) i’ve been looking at headdresses ah-lah Lord of the Rings to go with my Lord of the rings styled wedding dress.

I figure– Sure, I’ll probably only wear it once, but what a great thing to start off as a heirloom! *smirks*

Right. So Since i have a comment feed back thing now– you can tell me which one you like, and how lame and stupid you think I am for wanting to do this.

First is at the bottom of the page. So look there.

Second are a lot more simple than the first. A lot less expensive, but i’m not sure that they’re what i’m looking for.

I’ve looked around and found some pretty ones that just… don’t fit the dress quite the way I want my outfit to look. I’m getting more of a train on my dress than not because my sister-in-law (who designed the dress) did the paper test (to see if it was white enough) found that the dress wasn’t as white as she had hoped. Which means that I’ll be getting a dress to wear in the temple in addition to this one. 🙂

In anycase, that means i get a long flowing gown like I always wanted. 🙂 Huzzah. And it’s LoTR friendly too. I’m thinking about going out to this store down on 90th and buying three evenstars. I think it’d be a great Bridesmaid gift. Even if they don’t like it, they’ll have something pretty, right?

Right?

Derringer Meryl [Trying not to clench my teeth] Out

*sighs* I went to school today. I got a new assignment from class (wahoo) it’s due in april, so I need to get that done. Then I need to read my two books for class (Blah and blah-er) and write two more papers for my psychology class. (I should be doing that paper soon, so i don’t get swept up in the busy-ness of wedding prep.)

It’s been just over a week since Scott and I made it officially unofficial (I don’t have a ring yet, but we’re still getting married 🙂 June Ninth) We introduce each other as our fiance (if you read in the comments that’s what he posts as.) I love being engaged to Scott. I love Scott. It’s mind boggling how fast this all worked…. *sighs* The wedding planning is getting stressful. It seems like my brain is taking in a lot of excess stuff that doesn’t need to be there. Maybe that’s just me. Maybe I’m just one more ADD Bride who feels like there are two million things that need planned and wedding planners (like day planners for weddings) only make the stress worse. I’m horrible at making choices. In fact, i don’t like to make them at all. that’s just me. I just– really don’t like decisions. I like input (I get a lot, I just space it out) and I like opinions and ….

I guess that’s the best part of getting married. Someone to rely on and help out. All of the wedding stuff I’ve been reading says “Make the groom be involved.” Scott’s more involved than me I think. 🙂 I think it’s cute. I always ask his opinion, because– well… Brides tend to get this thing going of “It’s my special day and I’m gonna do it the way I want!” Which is wrong. The whole fetching idea is wrong. While most of the time the groom is still elated that the bride actually said “I do” he doesn’t care what anything looks like. I’d have to say that for me and Scott, this is OUR day. I’m elated he loves me. He’s elated that I love him (to stick words in his mouth, hee) and so, we want our day to be great.

I’m pretty much in happy giddy wonderful jubilant land. Even if my wedding cake is falling apart, and the happy couple standing on top have devil horns and start chasing around the guests– I couldn’t be happier. Because I’ll be with Scott.

Derringer Meryl [All Sapped] Out

Still at school. Wondering what to do. I have nothing to do because Dax is in class, I’m thinking about going and buying a notebook (i have to buy something… cause i said so. Heh) to start my “planning a wedding” journal. Which my mom suggested and Scott agreed that it would be a good idea.

Like I said, I was reading that blasted magazine and it says to me “You are supposed to buy a present for the groom…” and I’m all, “WHAT? Cheeze and rice, I don’t know anything” (Which isn’t an unusual thought, especially with being in school and all.) I just sorta think about it alot.

i was in class today and I talked to my stress management teacher, who i say has to be one of the nicest people in the world. she can turn anything from a negative into a positive. Which I happen to find one of the most useful talents ever. 🙂 I’m trying to implement it into my life, which she said is totally possible (see the positive ness?) I told her that I don’t feel like eating anymore (I just don’t. I feel like i’ve eaten a 24 course meal all the time) and she says “Are you in love?” and I blush, with a tiny Sakura face, and say “Yes, i am.” She grins and tells me that when you fall in love that you tend to lose weight because you stop eating. Also there’s a hormone emitted in your body that makes you feel full all the time. I told her that I had still felt full when I started to shake and my hands were unsteady. She said that i should eat sometimes even when i don’t feel like eating.

Now this may sound like common sense to everyone else, but I’m a firm believer in “If I’m not hungry, why should I eat?” so this thought sorta hit me, and I know that I should eat more than I do now. Heh.

I was in the car with Scott the other day, and we were listening to one of my CD’s (he was shocked (?right word?) that i liked eighties music too) and I put on this song. It was “Fly Me to the Moon – Asuka Bossa Techno” version of the ending to Evangelion. I love Evangelion. What can I say? Asuka’s version is SOOO fitting for us anyway. *looks around* I started humming it the other day while I was thinking of Scott, just randomly, thus I brought out the only CD I have it on. I think I lost the MP3 of it, so i’ve been scouring the net for it, but have yet to have found the exact same version. (I”m sure you’re thinking “Just rip it from your CD, duh!” and if i knew how, I would.) Anyway, it’s a great song. I’m gonna lyric spew it, and then scamper off to find me a new notebook. Just the right size. 😉

Fly me to the Moon, Various Artists

Fly me to the moon,

And let me play among the stars.

Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars.

In other words, hold my hand!

In other words, darling, kiss me.

Fill my heart with song,

and let me sing forever more.

You are all I long for, all I worship and adore.

In other words, please be true!

In other words, I love you!

Derringer Meryl [Off I go] Out

I just got done reading one of my Bridal Magazines. Some of it was helpful. Some of it was junk, and some of it was just plain mind blowing. I guess it takes being on this side of getting married (not the “Im watching you, but I don’t understand what’s going on side” but the “I’m the one actually doing it” side) to feel this stressed.

I wanted to stay on at GS until the semester is over so I could stay with a PT job until then. I don’t know if I’m going to be able to do that. I just looked through the list of everything that needs to be planned, and … wow. Florists and tuxes and cakes and… *gasps for air* I think the magazine is going for a more complicated wedding than I was planning in my brain. *shakes her head* Blah.

The more I read, the more I really don’t want a reception. Heh. Or at least don’t want to plan it. I’m one of those “I’ll think about it later” people (I suffer from Scarlett Syndrome) and so I flip through the magazine, and just go “I can’t be worrying about all this right now. I have school!” *raises her fist in a victory pose* I will do both. Other girls can do both. So can I. *nods* I’m gonna do it, and I’m gonna succeed.

and Now– I’m gonna go to work. Maybe someday they’ll give me a raise.

heh.

Derringer Meryl [Wow. Eye opening] Out

2004-03-06 – 3:51 p.m.

This Is for those of you who want to see the pictures of what my Maid of Honor and Bridesmaids are wearing. 🙂 Honest. I have that color of fabric and everything.

Heh.

Derringer Meryl [is a joke] Out