Undone

*sighs* I went to school today. I got a new assignment from class (wahoo) it’s due in april, so I need to get that done. Then I need to read my two books for class (Blah and blah-er) and write two more papers for my psychology class. (I should be doing that paper soon, so i don’t get swept up in the busy-ness of wedding prep.)

It’s been just over a week since Scott and I made it officially unofficial (I don’t have a ring yet, but we’re still getting married 🙂 June Ninth) We introduce each other as our fiance (if you read in the comments that’s what he posts as.) I love being engaged to Scott. I love Scott. It’s mind boggling how fast this all worked…. *sighs* The wedding planning is getting stressful. It seems like my brain is taking in a lot of excess stuff that doesn’t need to be there. Maybe that’s just me. Maybe I’m just one more ADD Bride who feels like there are two million things that need planned and wedding planners (like day planners for weddings) only make the stress worse. I’m horrible at making choices. In fact, i don’t like to make them at all. that’s just me. I just– really don’t like decisions. I like input (I get a lot, I just space it out) and I like opinions and ….

I guess that’s the best part of getting married. Someone to rely on and help out. All of the wedding stuff I’ve been reading says “Make the groom be involved.” Scott’s more involved than me I think. 🙂 I think it’s cute. I always ask his opinion, because– well… Brides tend to get this thing going of “It’s my special day and I’m gonna do it the way I want!” Which is wrong. The whole fetching idea is wrong. While most of the time the groom is still elated that the bride actually said “I do” he doesn’t care what anything looks like. I’d have to say that for me and Scott, this is OUR day. I’m elated he loves me. He’s elated that I love him (to stick words in his mouth, hee) and so, we want our day to be great.

I’m pretty much in happy giddy wonderful jubilant land. Even if my wedding cake is falling apart, and the happy couple standing on top have devil horns and start chasing around the guests– I couldn’t be happier. Because I’ll be with Scott.

Derringer Meryl [All Sapped] Out