Undone

I swear December is the month of things breaking. 😛

My car decided not to start, so I drove Scott’s car for a while, and I think that we should all know that I can’t drive manual to save my life. Ok. I can to save my life, but I’d probably pee myself in the process. LOL. Then Scott’s car would only drive in 3rd, and so that makes things ultra fun. So we took my car in, and luckily enough it was JUST the battery.  Then Scott decided to look at his car, and he just needed to jam the shift cables back into the right place. I still maintain the triumph that me driving manual is a bad idea, I will break your car. 😛

However,  because our cars were broken, i got to spend a very magical day with my girls,  as we set up our Christmas tree. Sometimes being an adult it’s really hard to remember what makes Christmas so great. Now days it’s full of stress and events and we lose a lot of the carefree moments of being able to run and play and anticipate. the fullness of our lives just pushes it out. Well, I got the tree out and katie started to sing songs. I would say they ar e Christmas songs, but really the only lyrics were “Christmas day christmas day” over and over. But it was sweet. She got the ornaments out and hung them on the ledge of our bed, and then after I took those down she started hanging them on the Christmas stick (the tree w/o the branches yet attached) I had to show Scott, who laughed wholeheartedly at her antics. Then, the most cutest thing ever happened, she was leaning into the Christmas tree box, and *THUMP* she got stuck, her feet wouldn’t touch the ground and she couldn’t push her way back out. LOL it was great to see her feet dangling over the edge of the box. So cute!

Audrey is growing by leaps and bounds, and is doing really well with sitting up. She is also a scooter, she will try to scoot off your lap to stand up, so adorable.

I’ll have to do my year end wrap up, review my goals. I don’t know how I did this year, but we’ll see. 🙂

Derringer Meryl {at peace} Out

A friend of mine passed this week. it seems to bring back the flood of people I know who have passed on. I think of each of them and grieve a little bit more. It’s like adding a little bit of weight on to my emotional back. I miss him.

we used to sit at our desks and look out the window at funerals. We could see them. I saw the tent they set up if it was raining, or too hot, or for fun I guess? it seemed to announce that someone had died. So sad.

I have been thinking extensively that if the world stopped every time someone died, we would never get anything done. which is good. I guess. I found out Wednesday, I felt mostly fine Thursday, I feel like I’m wading into treacherous water today. about to go off the deep end.

why did you leave us jeremy? We miss you. We are missing you. it might be a long time before I see you again. But I will. So I guess I’ll just have to wait.

Derringer Meryl [Good Bye Funny Man] Out

At Dinner yesterday Wudan mentioned he didn’t know the song “We Are all on Drugs” by Weezer to which I scoff. I thought my brothers LIKED good music, but apparently he’s not as obsessed with Weezer as I am. He actually accused me of singing a song from High School Musical, and i just looked at him like he needed brain surgery.

we are all on drugs

I mean, I realize that we all don’t get the chance to sit around in our rooms doing homework and listening to music anymore (sad, on the music front anyway) but it’s no excuse to become poorly in touch with one of the most awesomest bands ever! I admit that I have became quite the weezer geek. I am thinking that Weezer has started to replace my love affair with Twilight (Which i would say has burned hot and heavy for a while) and now I have found a new (probably unhealthy) obsession.

Hope everyone had a great thanksgiving. Ours was great!

Derringer Meryl [Something Something] Out

How True.

I am thankful for the people who love me, and who I love as well.

When I met Scott, I worried about meeting his family, I worried they wouldn’t like me or think I was good enough for him. I am very grateful that they love and accept me, and that they are just as crazy as I am.

I am grateful to my mother and father in law who raised my husband to be the sweet man he is, and helped him become the person he is today. Scott was teasing katie the other day and made a face just like his dad would have. We miss him.

I love my sisters in law (on both sides! Not just talking the H family here!)

I’m just basking in the love.

Derringer Meryl [happy] out

I have been thinking long and hard about what to say about my sibs. Its a hard thing for me to define, why I love them so much.

To be honest growing up with four bros was hard at times. But I have fond memories of each of them.

It is an easy thing to do, to hold onto an angry past, but it is a far better thing to do to move past it.

I can recall many times my brothers made sure to include me, and I treasure those memories.

So here is to my bros, some of the sweetest dorks around.

Derringer Meryl [word up] out