Undone

I have been thinking long and hard about what to say about my sibs. Its a hard thing for me to define, why I love them so much.

To be honest growing up with four bros was hard at times. But I have fond memories of each of them.

It is an easy thing to do, to hold onto an angry past, but it is a far better thing to do to move past it.

I can recall many times my brothers made sure to include me, and I treasure those memories.

So here is to my bros, some of the sweetest dorks around.

Derringer Meryl [word up] out

What’s the matter with Kids these days??

Not really. I have been with my kids this weekend (and other people’s too LOL) and I love my girls. They are a light in my life. While they on occasion drive me absolutely nuts (see this evening) they are sweet, and cute, and a blessing. There is a saying I learned on my message board, which i think is absolutely true….

“Our first child helps us to discover the depth of love; our second child, the breadth of it.”

I love my girls, I cherish them. I am grateful that they were sent to me and Scott to bring joy to our lives and allow us to progress as children of God.

Derringer Meryl [what’s the matter with] Out

To say how grateful I am for my parents. I’d spread them out over two days, but honestly– I would be afraid I’d post about one and forget the other, and they are a team. 🙂

My mom, I can remember, always told me to be a lady and be polite. I’m not sure how much of this rubbed off since I often put my callers on mute and scream about how I want to buy them a kitten, let them fall in love with that kitten and then steal away into their house and punch them in their face… but she tried. She stayed up late (more than i know, I’m sure) to make sure that my homework got done, and got up early to make sure i ate and got to school on time. Rain shine, sickness and health, my mommy was my mommy. Always. and of course i never realized that this wasn’t just her inclination to be like this until I was a mother myself, and I thought “GEEZE when do I get to sleep in??” and then I realized, the answer would be “never again!” as my mom has probably never (unless sick) slept past 8 am since my oldest brother was born (and he’s in his late thirties people, that’s a long time!!)

My dad, well he has sacrificed some sanity, and some good natured ribbings at his jokes and stories. I think that Maybe if I was a dad I could understand it better, the pressures of being a father, but I hope that I will never have to be a single parent. he was always a good provider, and I remember when I was little he worked graves and would sleep all day, and I remember he was never grumpy at us if we were too loud. I love to see him with my kids now, he is a spectacular grandpa, and while he gets on occasion overwhelmed by my girls (Katie likes to run around with his camera, I’m not sure how much it cost, but I can tell you my heart nearly stops when I see her with it) but he does his best, and really, what else can you ask for? I can remember him on many occasions telling me or my brothers not to say mean things to “his sweetheart” (My mom, duh) and i always admired that he stood up for her that way.

I appreciate that they raised me going to church, and being active in our callings. My mom and I are both kind of shy people, but I can recall her being a caring and loving woman to people when in need. Mom taught me to be frugal, and thrifty in my spending. I wish (looking back) that I had paid more attention, I love that I can call her and talk to her and ask her questions. That she loves to make things for my kids.

I love my parents, and I’m grateful for them. I’m so happy to see them in their capacities as grandparents to my girls. It’s a beautiful thing

Derringer Meryl [love love love] Out

There is a reason my BFF lives with me, because at this point I cannot imagine life with out her. She is incredibly supportive and sometimes after I come home from work and I’m collapsed on the couch she will discipline Katie for me. Yes I’m lazy, and it’s horrible, but she has the energy to go and put her in Time Out when I don’t. She makes me push harder when I’m at the gym, HECK i would never go to the gym without her (though I on occasion entertain the thought, but it’s no fun if there’s no one to giggle with.) And when we are down we help each other to get back up. She eats my dinner that I cook (and offer to her) but usually is very reserved about eating my food LOL. She always says it tastes good. I’m grateful that when I’m having a stressed mommy moment that she’s there to take one of the kids (who are usually pawing at me.) and give them a little attention. I’m a lucky girl. I always wonder what I’d do without DQ and the answer is… go crazy…

DON’T MIND IF I DO!

Derringer Meryl [Thankful] Out

Even though my job can be hard and wearing sometimes (like today)… I am grateful for my job. I have worked worse places (I HAVE.) and I have worked for less. (in fact a lot less) I love it here a lot of the time.

The job wouldn’t be so damn bad if it weren’t for the freakin’ customers.

Derringer Meryl [job] Out