Undone

I know– I’ve been doing some really shibby entries lately– and a lot of lyric spews– but *sighs* this song really speaks to me. So lyric spew, is what i’m going to do.

it’s me. *shrugs* So here we go– I Wish We Never Met, Kathleen Wilhoite

Disapointment stops by from time to time

to see how im doing

and he came by last night

right after you left

my life in ruin

when i dont get what i want

the spoiled child inside breaks down

kickin, screamin, prayin and dreamin

for a love lost and found

well I wish we never

wish we never

wish we never met

cuz now I’ve got my heart set on you

humiliation asked me out last night

I had nothing else to loose

so it took good kept two loopy drunk had conversations

i couldnt get through

another strangers eyes

were trying desperatly to meet mine

but i look away tabs to pay lines to say

like “how are you” “im doing fine”

ohh but i wish we never

wish we never

wish we never met

cuz now ive got my heart set

i wish we never

wish we never

wish we never met

cuz now ive got my heart set on you

and i dont get what i want

from another strangers eyes

no and i dont get what i want

from another strangers eyes

i wish we never

i wish we never

wish we never met

cuz now ive got my heart set on you

i’m set on you

and despite the fact that this is obviously about a guy and a girl, i still feel this way about most people in my life.

“I wish we never met just because every time we talk, i hurt you. And my heart is set on loving you, even just platonically– and i’m not sure who to put first, you or me.”

Red loved the gift (half of it) that i got her. Still. i feel a little empty inside. And my heart just hurts a little. Because i’ve screwed a lot of things. I’m messed up. I mess things up– and i talk, and i think, and i want to turn it all off. I wish–

I wish i could make it right.

Derringer Meryl [needs to take her meds] out

Double your pleasure, double the fun, double the lyric spew! I know you’re anxious to get to the lyrics, but whoa there little guy, just wait for a minute! I thought I could type a little entry before I got to the lyric spew, so I could double the pleasure and the fun!

So, it’s been interesting around here. A little infiltration and always Drama, Drama, Drama I could expound, but the writings could be discovered, and thus– I would have to take my arsenic pills, and everyone would disavow any knowledge of this undercover mission and– well that would be a rather depressing end to my little mind novellette, wouldn’t it?

I thought so. Anyway, First we’re going to have a lyric Spew from The Cardigans, Love Fool

Dear, I fear we’re facing a problem
you love me no longer, I know
and maybe there is nothing
that I can do to make you do
Mama tells me I shouldn’t bother
that I ought to stick to another man
a man that surely deserves me
but I think you do!

So I cry, I pray and I beg

Love me love me
say that you love me
fool me fool me
go on and fool me
love me love me
pretend that you love me
leave me leave me
just say that you need me
Love me love me
say that you love me
leave me leave me
just say that you need me
I can’t care ’bout anything but you…

Lately I have desperately pondered,
spent my nights awake and I wonder
what I could do have done in another way
to make you stay
Reason will not lead to solution
I will end up lost in confusion
I don’t care if you really care
as long as you don’t go

Now for a lyric spew from Cold, Stupid Girl

Wanna love ya
Wanna bug ya
Wanna squeeze ya
Stupid girl

Wanna touch ya,
Wanna take ya,
Wanna shut ya,
Stupid girl.

I can’t take this,
Born to break this.

She’s going away,
(She’s going away)
What’s wrong with my life today?
She’s going away,
(She’s going away)
What’s wrong with my life today?
Stupid girl, Stupid girl

I’m a loner,
I’m a loser,
I’m a winner,
In my mind.

I’m a bad one,
I’m a good one,
I’m a sick one,
With a smile.

I can’t take this,
Born to break this.

She’s going away,
(She’s going away)
What’s wrong with my life today?
She’s going away,
(She’s going away)
What’s wrong with my life today?
Stupid girl, Stupid girl

Stupid girl, Stupid girl

(whoa)

She’s going away,
(She’s going away)
What’s wrong with my life today?
She’s going away,
(She’s going away)
What’s wrong with my life today?
Stupid girl, Stupid girl

[repeat chorus til end]

OKay So I’ve been a good girl, Posted some lyric-y fun, and now– I’m going to scamper off to my happy little world, where I”m a double agent, and the very foxy Pierce Brosnen is torturing me until– Um… Never mind.

Derringer Meryl [Bad Llama] Out

I’m a sucker, with no Self esteem. Also I have acid problems in my stomach, and an abusive relationship I don’t know what to do with.

No. It’s not the monkey. It’s red.

I wrote her off for the tenth time today

And practiced all the things I would say

But she came over

I lost my nerve

I took her back and made her dessert

Now I know I’m being used

That’s okay man cause I like the abuse

I know she’s playing with me

That’s okay cause I’ve got no self esteem

We make plans to go out at night

I wait till 2 then I turn out the light

All this rejection’s got me so low

If she keep it up I just might tell her so

When she’s saying that she wants only me

Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends

When she’s saying that I’m like a disease

Then I wonder how much more I can spend

Well I guess I should stick up for myself

But I really think it’s better this way

The more you suffer

The more it shows you really care; Right ?

Now I’ll relate this little bit

That happens more than I’d like to admit

Late at night she knocks on my door

Drunk again and looking to score

Now I know I should say no

But that’s kind of hard when she’s ready to go

I may be dumb But I’m not a dweeb

I’m just a sucker with no self esteem

Self Esteem by The Offspring

Derringer Meryl [i have bruises] out

So —

Yeah.

Monkey broke the news to me tonight that he just wanted to be friends. I can deal iwth that, he’s a groovy guy, and fun to hang with. However I can’t deny it broke my heart a little. *stretches her hands out*

Okay. So it hurt. I don’t blame monkey for the hurt. the hurt is just there, it’s a thing. Things hurt. I’ll struggle through with the hurt, and then it’ll be done.

and I know Monkey will be reading this. Because he does from time to time… It doesn’t hurt because of you. You’re spiffy, you’re splendorific. I love spending time with you. You make me laugh, and you like Buffy.

And I’m enough of a grown up to see that you make an excellent friend, and it’ll take a while for the hurt to stop, but — thank you for telling me. Some people wouldn’t have the heart, and in the end it’d just make it hurt more.

I guess what i’m trying to say is, I understand, and the fact that I hurt, it’s just a thing. and I like hanging out with you too.

now to leave with some lyrics…. because i like to do that. Goodnight Sweet Girl Ghost of the Robot

Are we done for now,

Or is this for good,

Will there be something in time?

With us there should.

Only girl for me is you

There can be no other one

If I didn’t have faith

I would come undone

So much promise in your eyes

Seems that I can only see

It always makes me wonder

If you save it all for me

Maybe you do

Maybe you don’t

Maybe you should

Probably won’t…

Because there will be…

There will be other guys

Who will whisper in your ear

Say they’ll take away your sadness

And your fears

They may be kind and true

They may be good for you

But they’ll never care for you

More than I do

I’ll be always there

There to the end

I can’t do much

But be your one true friend

To the end

Through the end

Our lives to spend

With each other till the end

Of time…

Still see the promise in your eyes

And still wonder if it’s for me

But i know it’s still there

Even when you sleep

So I say, good night sweet girl

I guess you’d just have to hear it. It’s awesome. After this song, I’m going to listen to the hell that is my life by Zebrahead, just because it makes me feel better about anything… and everything.

Derringer Meryl [bracing for a headache] Out

Today, I’ve decided to steal my entry from my brother and post the same lyrics as he did. It’s odd that we’re seven years apart, and going through the same thing. heh. It’s great.

right then, Lyrics are Damnit by Blink182 Enjoy 🙂

It’s alright to tell me what you think about me

I won’t try to argue or hold it against you

I know that you’re leaving you must have your reasons

The season is calling and your pictures are falling down

The steps that I retrace a sad look on your face

The timing and structure did you hear he fucked her?

A day late a buck short I’m writing the report

I’m losing and failing when I move I’m flailing now

And it’s happened once again

I’ll turn to a friend

Someone that understands

Sees through the master plan

But everybody’s gone

And I’ve been here for too long

To face this on my own

Well I guess this is growing up

Well I guess this is growing up

And maybe I’ll see you at a movie sneak preview

You’ll show up and walk by on the arm of that guy

And I’ll smile and you’ll wave we’ll pretend it’s okay

The charade it won’t last when he’s gone I won’t come back

And it’ll happen once again

You’ll turn to a friend

Someone that understands

And sees through the master plan

But everybody’s gone

And you’ve been there for too long

To face this on your own

Well I guess this is growing up

Well, I guess this is growing up [4x]

Well, I guess this is growing up

Derringer Meryl [I hate growing up] Out