Undone

So —

Yeah.

Monkey broke the news to me tonight that he just wanted to be friends. I can deal iwth that, he’s a groovy guy, and fun to hang with. However I can’t deny it broke my heart a little. *stretches her hands out*

Okay. So it hurt. I don’t blame monkey for the hurt. the hurt is just there, it’s a thing. Things hurt. I’ll struggle through with the hurt, and then it’ll be done.

and I know Monkey will be reading this. Because he does from time to time… It doesn’t hurt because of you. You’re spiffy, you’re splendorific. I love spending time with you. You make me laugh, and you like Buffy.

And I’m enough of a grown up to see that you make an excellent friend, and it’ll take a while for the hurt to stop, but — thank you for telling me. Some people wouldn’t have the heart, and in the end it’d just make it hurt more.

I guess what i’m trying to say is, I understand, and the fact that I hurt, it’s just a thing. and I like hanging out with you too.

now to leave with some lyrics…. because i like to do that. Goodnight Sweet Girl Ghost of the Robot

Are we done for now,

Or is this for good,

Will there be something in time?

With us there should.

Only girl for me is you

There can be no other one

If I didn’t have faith

I would come undone

So much promise in your eyes

Seems that I can only see

It always makes me wonder

If you save it all for me

Maybe you do

Maybe you don’t

Maybe you should

Probably won’t…

Because there will be…

There will be other guys

Who will whisper in your ear

Say they’ll take away your sadness

And your fears

They may be kind and true

They may be good for you

But they’ll never care for you

More than I do

I’ll be always there

There to the end

I can’t do much

But be your one true friend

To the end

Through the end

Our lives to spend

With each other till the end

Of time…

Still see the promise in your eyes

And still wonder if it’s for me

But i know it’s still there

Even when you sleep

So I say, good night sweet girl

I guess you’d just have to hear it. It’s awesome. After this song, I’m going to listen to the hell that is my life by Zebrahead, just because it makes me feel better about anything… and everything.

Derringer Meryl [bracing for a headache] Out