Undone

I know– I’ve been doing some really shibby entries lately– and a lot of lyric spews– but *sighs* this song really speaks to me. So lyric spew, is what i’m going to do.

it’s me. *shrugs* So here we go– I Wish We Never Met, Kathleen Wilhoite

Disapointment stops by from time to time

to see how im doing

and he came by last night

right after you left

my life in ruin

when i dont get what i want

the spoiled child inside breaks down

kickin, screamin, prayin and dreamin

for a love lost and found

well I wish we never

wish we never

wish we never met

cuz now I’ve got my heart set on you

humiliation asked me out last night

I had nothing else to loose

so it took good kept two loopy drunk had conversations

i couldnt get through

another strangers eyes

were trying desperatly to meet mine

but i look away tabs to pay lines to say

like “how are you” “im doing fine”

ohh but i wish we never

wish we never

wish we never met

cuz now ive got my heart set

i wish we never

wish we never

wish we never met

cuz now ive got my heart set on you

and i dont get what i want

from another strangers eyes

no and i dont get what i want

from another strangers eyes

i wish we never

i wish we never

wish we never met

cuz now ive got my heart set on you

i’m set on you

and despite the fact that this is obviously about a guy and a girl, i still feel this way about most people in my life.

“I wish we never met just because every time we talk, i hurt you. And my heart is set on loving you, even just platonically– and i’m not sure who to put first, you or me.”

Red loved the gift (half of it) that i got her. Still. i feel a little empty inside. And my heart just hurts a little. Because i’ve screwed a lot of things. I’m messed up. I mess things up– and i talk, and i think, and i want to turn it all off. I wish–

I wish i could make it right.

Derringer Meryl [needs to take her meds] out