Undone

From Carebear’s blog, I”ll just be doing it for Katie. For now.

1- Where were you when you first found out you were pregnant? Home, In our Condo, back in the day.

2- Who was with you? No one, I tested alone Cause I”m a bit of a POAS whore. I love taking pregnancy tests. I have a problem
3- How did you find out that you were pregnant?  well, the weird thing is the line was faint, and so I didn’t really believe it was a “REAL” line,  So I guess I really believed I was pregnant when I saw Katie on her ultrasound at 12 weeks

4- What was your first reaction to finding out you were pregnant? nervous. I had a miscarriage before, so Scott and I were just nervous. It was hard to be excited.

5- Your Husbands reaction? Also nervous.

6- Who was the first person you told? I think technically (sorry mom) Lashes might have known first, I brought my pee tests to her house to look at. I was very nervous.

7. Did you plan to get pregnant? Yes. Katie was expected and anticipated.

8-Was everybody happy for you? I can’t remember, if they weren’t I’ve forgotten.
9- Did you go out and celebrate? No. See nervous-ness. We wanted to make sure there was going to be a whole pregnancy before celebrating.

10- Did you want to find out the sex? Yes

11- What was the sex? Girl

12-Did anyone throw you a baby shower? Yes, two.

13- If yes, who? Carebear, and then Sukie and my Mom 🙂

14- Did you get any outfits at the baby shower that you just knew you weren’t going to put on your baby?  If there was, it wasn’t because of the “cuteness” of it, it was more the time of year aspect, but one of them that I thought for sure she wouldn’t fit into, she did for winter! I was shocked! (though it was the winter the year after! LOL)

15- How much weight did you gain? 35 LBS 🙁

16- Did you loose all of the weight that you gained?  Yes, and then No. Though it dropped off very quickly I’m starting to gain it back. At least I’m pregnant again.

17- Did you get a lot of stretch marks? Yesssssssssssss.

18- What did you crave the most? Mayo and lettuce (together and warm) and Marinara sauce on ANYTHING. (Potatoes and noodles mostly :D)

19- Did you crave anything crazy? Ice. I craved ice like crazy. I know now it’s because of PICA and the fact I was low on Iron.

20- Who or what got on your nerves the most?  I would say being HUGE. I like being pampered and saying “Oh I can’t do that.” Because I’m pretty lazy.

21- Were you married at the time? Yes

22- Did you have any complications during your pregnancy? Breech Baby! That’s about it.

23- Where were you when you went into labor? Labor!? What’s that!

24- Did your water break? NOPE

25- Who drove you to the hospital? Scott, at Five flippin’ AM! Sheesh!

26- Did you go early or late? 5 days early.

27- Who was in the room with you when you gave birth? Scott, two doctors, like five nurses and an anesthesiologist

28- Was it video taped? No Scott hesitated to do too many pictures too, he didn’t want to see me sewn up.

29- Did you have any drugs for the pain?  Kind a had to. I had a spinal block on my spine, Which was a tiny bit painful (just a bit) and some sweet sweet morphine after the surgery was OVER.

30-Did you go Natural or have a c-section? C-section, wouldn’t it make sense to ask this BEFORE all those other questions? Like up at 23? Whatever.

31- What was your first reaction after giving birth?  I was HUNGRY. Mostly because I hadn’t eaten in hours and hours, I also wanted to hold her, try nursing etc. But I was scared to hold her because i felt VERY noodly all over.

32- How big was the baby(s)? 8 lbs 3 oz, 19 1/2 inches

33- Did your Husband cry? I was pretty out of it, but I would say not at that moment. He’s cried plenty since. Mostly when he thinks about how much he wishes his dad could be there. PS, Scott did an excellent job of taking care of Katie for me, as I couldn’t get out of bed, KUDOS to Scott!

34- What did you name the baby(s)? Katherine Rei. which means Pure (for katherine) and Rei means Lovely. 🙂

35- Did the baby(s) have any complications? They had to keep a monitor on her foot for a while, to be honest I can’t remember what for, because I was kinda hopped up on drugs.

36- How old is your baby today? 18 months 🙂 She’ll be 19 months tomorrow though 😀

37- When is the next one(s) coming? >.< July 8, 2009 apparently.

38-If you could, would you do it all over again? Yes. Katie is a bright spot in our life. Sure some days life would be easier without her, to go and do things QUICK and fast– but I would miss her hugs and kisses, and even her stubborn, NO NO NO! [[Confidentially, she kissed my tummy this morning and it was adorable, I asked her if she was kissing the baby, and she got this indignant look on her face.]]

Derringer Meryl [baby stuff] Out

Katie is in the back of my mom’s car asleep after a hard day of shopping and a snack of chex mix

we look like we’re in an expressionist painting. Left to right, Scott, Me, Katie (I’m holding her) Jam Jam, Lorna, and Midori. 🙂 It was FREEZING but we all wanted to see the lights anyway.  We had quite a bit of fun, except for when the annoying High School kids were singing songs that weren’t spiritual Christmas songs. IMO– I don’t want to hear rudolph the red nosed reindeer after coming off the emotional high of having my daughter watch the nativity story for the first time. Thanks a lot HIGH SCHOOL KIDS!!

Katie was nervous about being on the edge, but was having fun anyway. Midori was holding onto her, I hope Jam jam doesn’t mind, I cropped him out of the picture because of his expression, LOL.

This is by the reflecting pool downtown. I love this pool, it does GREAT pictures.

We tried to get Katie to look at the camera, but it didn’t work!!

The rest of the pictures are just me trying to be “artistic” or as artistic as you can be with a camera in your phone. they aren’t PERFECT, but hey, camera phone!

This was taken ON the reflecting pool, which is to say the image you’re seeing is the temple on the pool. You can actually see in the lower right hand corner the lights they float on the pool during winter. I looooooooove this picture.

This year they had a nativity on the pool in addition to the nativity they have next to the north visitor’s center. Really I think it’s great. I love nativities. This one was gorgeous. I wish I could take better pictures of it…. but I hope this at least inspires people in utah to go and see it!

More Nativity, I didn’t get any of this head on, but it was beautiful.

Beautiful! Don’t let my shotty camera work fool you, it’s crazy beautiful up there!

We had a very nice monday night, we actually started it off with dinner at Wendy’s. I don’t know if I’ve ever mentioned it but Wendy’s is the MOST yummy place ever. Seriously I love Wendy’s the most when PG. I have this thing about Mayo when pregnant. I love it. I would probably (don’t read this jen!) eat a mayo sandwich and be giddy about it.

YUM!

Derringer Meryl [happy day] Out

We have lowered our themometer down to 65 in an attempt to keep our Heating bill down (HAHA!) and have been using our fireplace more and more. Mostly because it’s easier to burn boxes (from moving) and other cardboard and paper from around the house (as well as some wood the previous owners left behind.) It usually keeps the house warm for 4-5  hours at 70+ degrees. I appreciate the fire, and after getting our last bill, I nearly fainted. The main problem we encounter is that SCOTT likes to be cold (fans open windows) where as i like to be warm. So I have taken to dressing warmer (long sleeves, socks slippers etc) and dressing katie warmer too (since she tends to be with me on the warm v cold thing) It’s been an interesting time. Even though it’s only been 24 hours, It’s become clear I need to invest in some warm PJ’s for Katie as most of what she has now are summer Pj’s…

Also I’m going to do something my mom did when we were growing up, cover windows with plastic to keep the warm in and the cold out. We have no curtains (Sadly) and no curtain rods either, so I we don’t have ANYTHING keeping the heat in!

UGH. But it’s nothing horrible.

I did my glucose test yesterday. The Lab people told me I might fail because I ate breakfast (UGH, I don’t enjoy the thought of doing a 3 hr test… four blood draws too! UGH UGH UGH!) but it was just eggs. They took 6 vials of blood and I was there for … I’d say an hour and a half. I had to get all the admitting paperwork done. I felt weird, every one else (all the other pg women) were like 24-28 weeks, and I was there to take the same test … 9 weeks. Oh well.  I Hope everything turns out ok. I have been working really hard on keeping myself unstressed. I’m being extra non confrontational. I nearly exploded when Scott told me he was scheduled to work Christmas, especially since he worked last year and a lot of holidays this year. (and last year for that matter) Luckily Frik fixed it and found some one to take Scott’s place. Which I really appreciated– Scott had to work last Christmas, it was quite depressing for me, I dont’ like being alone on Holidays, but Everyone else was with family, and while i could have stayed in SLC but there wouldn’t have been anyone to take me home.

we’re going to a baby blessing (wahoo) today, so I need to wake Scott up shortly, and get Katie dressed, as well as myself. it’s going to be an interesting afternoon. 😀

Derringer Meryl [how sweet] out

Happy December everyone! I love december, quite certainly the best (and most stressful) month out of the year. I’m really excited though. I can’t wait for Christmas.

As for thanksgiving, my house is still a total wreck from it. Isn’t that sad? yeah I know it’s horrific. but to be quite frank, I could sleep 15 hours a day and feel tired still and Scott– well he’s absolutely amazing and needless to say extremely exhausted anyway.  It seems like every weekend has a plan or activity, So i don’t see our house improving soon. Except it has to. Maybe after my appointment on the 15th I can clean a little.  I have been wondering about going on some anxiety medication possibly as my anxiety levels are crazy through the roof about everything! I’m trying to do my best to stay calm, but sometimes I just can’t. I worry about ridiculous stuff, I worry about serious stuff. I worry all the time.

Katie has caught another cold, which is unfortunate, the most unfortunate thing about it is, her increasing bad attitude and her inability to use a pacifier while sleeping. So that means no one gets sleep around here but her, and when she is sleeping she’s making you hold her in an uncomfortable position. LOL! She’s wearing some 24 month clothes now. They’re a bit tall on her yet, but overall, I say a good fit. I”m glad that’s what I got her for Christmas Pj’s! whew!

Scott likes to play this “game” every Christmas to see if he can figure out everything under the tree I got him. 😛 What a jerk. Of course he did it this year because he logged into my work computer and checked my internet history!! what a jerk!! I like to be suprised. But apparently he doesn’t. I knew that already since his parents had to be so tricky about wrapping and hiding presents. I’ll admit it made me really sad when he knew everything he was getting because I had worked really hard to figure out something exciting and suprising to get him. 😛 Whatever. It didn’t work out. I told him next year I’m going to donate all of his money to Child’s play and let kids who really appreciate the stuff they get be excited.  In any case…. I’d return it all If I could and just tell him that’s what he gets (my family does stuff like this! We’re pretty bitter about SNOOPING and PEEKING)  but since it was ordered online, It’s really too much of a hassle to return it. 😛 Oh well.

We’re moving downstairs at work, for a few weeks while we get new cubicles. I’m sad to leave my desk as I love my window, and I unfortunately will not be near the windows downstairs… not like I am up here… Oh well. I feel much more cheerful looking outside. At least it’s just a few weeks, right? Hopefully.

I’m feeling weirdly optimistic today. Like life is ok. Which is odd for me. I’m usually fairly “realistic” or you could say pessimistic. So I’m feeling oddly good.

Derringer Meryl [happy day] out

So. Baby is good. Blood Pressure is high, I’ll have to go back in two weeks to get it checked again, and if it’s too hgih again… I get put on medication 😛  So I’m taking that day off Dec 15, in an effort to keep my BP down.

Don’t stress me out man. I gotta chill out. HB was 167. So yay. I have to go take a Glucose test, and get a BUNCH of blood drawn this weekend. So If I made plans with you, i’m sorry, I will now be sitting in a lab being poked at and sugared up. :p Sorry.

Derringer Meryl [babies] Out