Undone

I guess I’ve been avoiding doing this a while. But that’s what I do….

Marci died in a car accident. Like the specialist, it doesn’t feel great to talk about it, but he was closer to Marci than I was…. which I blame on myself.

I miss her very much. And to her family (which some of which is my family) I send my deepest condolences.

and even those don’t quite hit all of the places i wish they could.

Derringer Meryl [Itai] Out

Greetings from the land of cement and spiders.

Scott cleaned (organized) the basement today, and made it so you can see the floor again. Made me very happy. The spiders, however, do not. Scott sprayed today while he was cleaning, but for some reason, that encourages them to come out. So one about an inch or so in diameter came out, and decided to play with me a few minutes ago, it started to head for underneath the couch, and I had no choice, no matter how squeemish it made me, I stomped on it. I hate doing that. I much rather have Scott (or one of his siblings) do it.

*shudders*

Derringer Meryl [ew ew ew] Out

I finally got myself some sugar last night. I was so thrilled. I am a complete sugar addict, so the fact that i’m married to a diabetic can be a little tricky.

I had two slices of chocolate cake. and MAN was it good. I sorta got sick toward the end because the milk tasted kinda gross. Anyway. I’m happy. I decided that as a treat for Scott and I’s anniversary I’m getting a Granny B’s Cookie, the sugar cookie with pink frosting. I lived off of those in high school, every day for lunch– so you can see my sugar withdrawl woes, right?

I finished a lot of stuff up with Convergys today. I got finger printed, and did my five year back ground check. It wasn’t hard or anything, mostly just time consuming. I think I’m going to have to take and move my file cabinet from my parents house to here. I don’t really know why I haven’t yet, but since i’ll be moving soon (read: in a month) everything I’ve done now will have to be re-done. 🙂 Oh well. I don’t care. Being a grown-up is hard. THat’s what I’ve decided. i can remember wanting to be grown up when I was little, so I could do things without asking If i could or not, but honestly, I still have to ask.

I dont’ have to check with someone if I want to leave the house or anything, that’s fine…. but– yeah, I still have to worry about not spending too much. I would like to get some new clothes, so my pay checks are going to go a little toward that since I’m not fitting into as many of my clothes as before…. :S

Call me skinny all you want, but clothes don’t lie. Some part of me is getting bigger. *shrugs*

Derringer Meryl [burnt roof of mouth] Out