Undone

task for today, Finish Final Fantasy X-2 by midnight. Can i do i?? No one knows but me, and the darn mentally screwed up people who made the game. Shame on them

Sheesh.

Derringer Meryl [Square-Enix hates me] Out

Time for another shameful Secret:

I sorta am… what would you call it…

I’m a closet Eminem fan. Sad. I know. *shrugs* “I sometimes like things that are not good for me.” Right ole Xander Boy?

Derringer Meryl [Conclusion of Secret Bearing time] Out

Have I mentioned that I broke 400 entries in this bloody thing rather recently?

Not to mention breaking eleven hundred hits. (not all unique, of course)

*laughs* I’ve just had the most….. odd and amazing day ever. It’s crazy. very Very crazy.

Part of me wants to scream it to the world… and another part of me wants to keep it just for me to know.

and maybe I should, since it’s a secret.

Derringer Meryl [Some secrets aren’t bad] Out

Okay, so it’s like… a sin not to have a Lyric Spew by at least wednesday, and guess what day it is! So, I decided on this one, because it doesn’t swear, and it’s a very intense song.

With funny story. 🙂 I was listening to it, and feeling lazy, I simply asked Daxero who sang the song. He came to listen, and he didn’t know. My mom and her friend wanted to know what we were listening to, so i told them it was a song/music video (me and my darn AMVs) so they wanted to hear too. I told them they wouldn’t like it. They said “you never know… What does it sound like?” I deadpanned, knowing they wouldnt’ like it, and said “Slightly Linkin Parkish, i guess.” For the lack of anything else they might know. They shrugged and asked to listen again. I acquiesced… and unplugged my head set. A few moments later, they asked for me to turn it back off. 🙂 If it’s too loud, you’re too old!

Always, Saliva

I hear… a voice say “Don’t be so blind”…

it’s telling me all these things…

that you would probably hide…

am I… your one and only desire…

am I the reason you breath…

or am I the reason you cry…

Always… always… always… always… always… always… always…

I just can’t live without you…

I love you…

I hate you…

I can’t live without you…

I breathe you…

I taste you…

I can’t live without you…

I just can’t take anymore…

this life of solitude…

I guess that i’m out the door…

and now i’m done with you…

I feel… like you don’t want me around…

I guess i’ll pack all my things…

I guess i’ll see you around…

Inside… it bottles up until now…

as I walk out your door…

all I hear is the sound…

Always… always… always… always… always… always… always…

I just can’t live without you…

I love you…

I hate you…

I can’t live without you…

I breathe you…

I taste you…

I can’t live without you…

I just can’t take anymore…

this life of solitude…

I guess that i’m out the door…

and now i’m done with you…

I love you…

I hate you…

I can’t live without you…

I left my head around your heart…

Why would you tear my world apart…

Always… always… always… always…

I see… the blood all over your hands…

does it make you feel… more like a man…

was it all… just a part of your plan…

this pistol’s shakin’ in my hands…

and all I hear is the sound…

I love you…

I hate you…

I can’t live without you…

I breathe you…

I taste you…

I can’t live without you…

I just can’t take anymore…

this life of solitude…

I guess that i’m out the door…

and now i’m done with you…

I love you…

I hate you…

I can’t live without you…

I love you…

I hate you…

I can’t live without you…

I just can’t take anymore…

this life of solitude…

I pick myself off the floor…

and now i’m done with you…

Always…

Always…

Always…

Yeah, Linkin Park and Saliva dont’ really sound all that similar in anyway EXCEPT the fact it gets loud, and tends to scream. That’s about it. Actually, if i were to compare Saliva to anyone it would be more like Stabbing Westward. Tha’ts just my opinion though. I don’t actually KNOW anything about music.

This all of the sudden came to me, and so… may i introduce …..

Tips for Fanfic Reviewers

I’ve been getting some rather annoying reviews consisting of: “hey, Dat wus todally awsume. U shuld upDate moore.” or even “Dis wus 2 short. u shuld b beter than htat. a fic like dis 1 shuld b updated more.”

and honestly, I’d like to tell them to go take a long walk off a short pier. I couldn’t care less. Maybe i’m haughty in my opinion of myself, but my writing isn’t, “oh look it’s tuesday, I should update” type of thing. I’m not an ‘on schedule’ type person. When i get an idea i write…. and instead of stimulating my brain to work faster and harder to please them, they’re making my brain focus on their stupid grammer, and their rude demands. It’s not like they say please. They demand. “I WANT MORE NOW! and i don’t care if you have a life or problems. I just want more story! Dang it!” and while i may be indulging this a little, it’s simply because that’s how it feels when they ask for more without even being polite about it. For everyone on the net, take some netiquette classes. I’m sure it’ll help, cause there’s almost no way you could go down from where you are. *rolls her eyes*

However, I do adore the reviews which are nice and kind, and THEN ask me to update soon. Those motivate me. It makes me think “Well there’s a nice person out there just like me…. I suppose I’ll get to work on the next chapter” See, that’s how my mood is. Great isn’t it?

Derringer Meryl [Achy and Wheezy] out

well, see, I’ve gotten myself into a bit of a pickle… sorta…. uh– double booked myself, Isnt’ that spiffy?? I thought so… I said I could do a debate tourny (judging, which means I get paid a little!) and that I could work on saturday. *blinks*

Hopefully everything works out. *nods*

I think I need to do a lyric spew… and i’m not sure as to what. Most of the new songs I’ve downloaded, well, they’re good, and i like them, but… they just arent’… my thing. (coughs) Right.

have you ever noticed, that is if you watch anime like i do, that anime holds several re-occurring themes (no I don’t mean like mechs… or unrequited love) I mean, duplicity. Reincarnation (in the sense that there can be more than one of you at once… blah… it’s hard to explain) The body as a shell, being reproduced multiple times and the soul simply moving from shell to shell. Tarot Cards are big, yep, telling the future… Uh… lechers. And panty thiefs. One, like me, who doesn’t know that much about Japan might surmise that all the boys are timid pervs and all the girls outlandish (but cute) school girls.

i’m not saying that’s how it is, i’m just saying that’s what it may be perceived as such. 🙂

Derringer Meryl [Thinking too much] Out