Jan
11
2004
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In an Awkward Limbo

“Any romantic feelings that were there, aren’t anymore. But still i’m driven insane. What does she have that I don’t? Is it her attitude? Is it her hair? Her body? I admit freely she’s much trimmer than me…. God. What is it about brown hair that makes someone stare right through you? And I wonder still now if we ever had anything. If it was anything. I shouldn’t. I know it. It’s stupid TO wonder. because the past doesn’t matter anymore. Especially not to you. You’ve already moved on….. It’s her eyes. I’m sure. Maybe not. Maybe it’s just a whole… package. And God, could she be more of a stark contrast to me. Not like black and white, cause someone might insinuate that one is better than the other… no. That’s not it. it’s like…. comparing yellow to blue. Both equally good colors, but… sometimes people just favor yellow over blue. How could you not? and there are so many people yelling at me to budge. To move. To go on. I’m not stopped. I’m moving… and contemplating what i’ve passed. Nothing is as simple as a date. I’ve spent too much time being hurt over stupid things to let the sweet things in life slip so quickly away from me. And you were the only thing that made me feel right…. in the longest time. Still…. if i could go … back. I would. I’d change things– but– not the outcome. I don’t regret that….

I regret telling you.”

*Claps for herself* That’s just a taste of my free thought writing. Isn’t it great? I enjoy writing it. It’s rather fun. *coughs* Oh. Right. You’re realizing that i’m not supposed to be at home RIGHT now, right? Well. I’m not feeling well… and so… yeah. I’m …. just…here. 🙂 At home. Writing free thought prose.

And I have a lyric spew, now, for once I do it on a Sunday. 🙂

Rapid Hope Loss, Dashboard Confessional

You’ve come to say you want it all,

but I can’t say I blame you now.

Sometimes you got to fall before you’re found out.

Thanks for waiting this long to show yourself,

Because now that I can see you,

I don’t think you’re worth a second glance.

So much for all the promises you’ve made.

It served well and now you’re gone

And they’re wasted on me.

So much for your enduring sense of charm.

It served well and now you’re gone

And it’s wasted on me.

You’ve come to say you want it all,

but I can’t say I blame you now.

Sometimes you got to fall before you’re found out.

Well thanks, thanks for waiting this long to show yourself, to show yourself

Because now that I can see you,

I don’t think you’re worth a second glance.

So much for all the promises you’ve made.

It served well and now you’re gone

And they’re wasted on me.

So much for your enduring sense of charm.

It served well and now you’re gone

And it’s wasted on me.

I guess that all you got is all you’re gonna get.

So much for, so much for…..

I guess that all you got is all you’re gonna get.

So much for, so much for…..

Do what you want, if that’s what you wish.

I can’t see…

You’ve got a sense…

You’ll find a way to make things right.

I guess that all you got is all you’re gonna get.

So much for, so much for….

I guess that all you got is all you’re gonna get.

So much for, so much for….

Derringer Meryl [Nothing is as it seems] Out

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Oct
29
2003
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Never had an experience like this

I’m so silly. Cause… its time for a LYRIC SPEW!! I’m in love with this song, So deal with it. It’s like my favorite right after White Flag.

Hands Down, Dashboard Confessional

breathe in for luck

breathe in so deep

this air is blessed

you share with me

this night is wild

so calm and dull

these hearts they race

from self control

your legs are smooth

as they graze mine

we’re doing fine

we’re doing nothing at all.

my hopes are so high

that your kiss might kill me.

so won’t you kill me,

so i die happy.

my heart is yours

to fill or burst

or break or bury

or wear as jewelery,

which ever you prefer.

the words are hushed

lets not get busted,

just lay entwined here

undiscovered.

safe from the earth

and all the stupid questions…

“hey did you get some?”

man, that is so dumb.

stay quiet,

stay near,

stay close they can’t hear,

so we can get some.

my hopes are so high

that your kiss might kill me.

so won’t you kill me,

so i die happy.

my heart is yours

to fill or burst

or break or bury

or wear as jewelery,

which ever you prefer.

hands down this is the best day

i can ever remember,

i’ll always remember

the sound of the stereo,

the dim of the soft lights,

the scent of your hair

that you twirled in your fingers and

the time on the clock

when we realized

it’s so late

and the walk

that we shared together.

the street was wet

and the gate was locked

so i jumped it and

let you in and

you stood at the door

with your hands

on my waist

and you kissed me,

but you meant it

and i knew

that you meant it,

that you meant it,

that you meant it,

and i knew,

that you meant it,

that you meant it.

Derringer Meryl [wishing for moments] Out

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