Undone

WHOA. Seriously. Whoa.

In the past three weeks Scott has had THREE jobs. I kid you not. First he had his Job where I work, then his new job, and then his NEW NEW job. the middle job there hired him with good intentions, but found that they had lost clients the same week he had been hired and that put him on the chopping block. It was NOT  a great way to start February, but over all, if any month in the year has to suck, let it be february because it’s so short.

I got to go and be there when Sukie found out that she was having a girl. I am SO excited for them, and SUPER excited to help throw her baby shower. I have never done one. Ever. Unless you count me helping my mom on baby showers before, but I don’t really since I mostly just sat there and agreed with my mom’s plans. I’m only help plan/and host, so I’m glad I don’t have ALL the responsibility, but I’m very excited for the shower. Did I say I want to make a cake and decorate it? I don’t have the clearance or go ahead… but of course I had to check it out… I was thinking, this?

I’m just kidding, in case you couldn’t tell. 😉 though I would have LOVED to have a cake like that with Audrey. It’s hilarious.

I’ve been thinking about Audrey’s Birthday a lot lately (I know I”m weird and obsessive) and I am hoping to make a marshmellow fondant ballerina cake. TECHNICAL. i am so … worried about it. I need to figure this stuff out. Maybe I should try not to over do it. I really enjoyed Katie’s last birthday because it was so simple. Balloons, clean house, family and close friends. It was great.  But … I don’t know if I’ve ever mentioned it before… I love cake decorating. I do. I wish I could do something super impressive, but I find myself not dreaming about it too much mostly because I have stupid hands. (If you don’t get the reference, I highly recommend watching Futurama’s episode “The Devil’s Hands are Idle Playthings” and you might get it.) I love cakes (so much so that I’ve had two pieces this week… for no reason other than I needed it to not feel depressed, Yeah I”m horrible) and I love the pretty decor. I would LOVE to try something.

I should probably get into classes, even if it is just to learn. I don’t need to be a professional… I just want to do something fun.

Derringer Meryl [cakes on the brain] Out

This is the song of the moment. I love this song. It’s slightly upbeat. I feel like it applies here– I’m not sure who between Red and I is the singer. Who is the object (the girl) maybe it’s a duet between us? I don’t know. I think we’re on the same page as far as this. I’m just really not sure of much right now. I’m really not sure of much. (except the previous entry) Let Me Go, Cake

When she walks
She swings her arms, instead of her hips
When she talks she moves her mouth, instead of her lips
I’ve waited for her for so long
I’ve waited for her for so long
I’ve wondered if I could hang on
I’ve wondered if I could hang on

“Let me go,” she said
“Let me go,” she said
Let me go and I will want you more
Let me go, let me go
Let me go and I will want you

When she wants
She wants the sun instead of the moon
When she sees
She sees the stars inside of her room
I’ve waited for her for so long
I’ve waited for her for so long
I’ve wondered if I could hang on
I’ve wondered if I could hang on

“Let me go,” she said
“Let me go,” she said
Let me go and I will want you more
“Let me go,” she said
Let me go
Let me go, and I will want you

“Let me go,” she said
“Let me go,” she said
“Let me go,” she said
Let me go, let me go

Derringer Meryl [Cake sounds good] Out

Uber quick lyric spew…. Should be going out for D&D soon–and I just wanted to leave this as a thought. I was thinking of this song in the car with Scott the other day. 😉 I think he’ll understand…

Stick Shifts and Safety Belts, Cake

Stick shifts and safety belts

Bucket seats have all got to go

When I’m driving in my car

It makes my baby seem so far

I need you here with me

Not way over in a bucket seat

I need you to be here with me

not way over in a bucket seat

But when we driving in my Malibu

It’s easy to get right next to you

I say “Baby scoot over please”

And then she’s right there next to me

I need you here with me

Not way over in a bucket seat

I need you to be here with me

Not way over in a bucket seat

Well a lot of good cars are Japanese

But when we’re driving far

I need my baby, I need my baby next to me

Ah..well

Stick shifts and safety belts

Bucket seats have all got to go

When I’m driving in my car

It makes my baby seem so far

I need you here with me

Not way over in a bucket seat

I need you to be here with me

Not way over in a bucket seat

Derringer Meryl [I need you here with me] Out

Ever had those moments where you just wanted to run and hide in a box? Yeah, this is one of those moments. This is the moment that staples is on the phone and he’s talking to me, and i’m just… wondering why he thinks that Monkey and I are still dating.

You think i’d run with that idea, considering the fact that Staples is interested in me… but since i don’t think monkey would appreciate that very much, and i don’t need to be deluded at all.

So I told the truth. Aren’t you proud of me? I told the truth when it was harder. I told him that I wasn’t, and I hadn’t been since July.

I’ve never been so proud of myself. I feel like calling and telling Monkey right now — but instead, I’m going to go buy cake. Yes, fattening, thigh adding, waist thickening and tongue happy cake.

I don’t care. I told the truth. Good On me.

Derringer Meryl [Happy, and then Not] Out