Undone

You know how when you try something new that you like and you want to do it more and more?

that’s not always the best reaction ever. Really. It’s bad for you. You could become addicted to it or something… or… um…

Nevermind.

It’s been driving me crazy too. Ya know? I feel like a little kid in Primary (if you don’t know what primary is, i’m sorry.) and i want to go and run around and be wild and grab things and play the piano and ask questions. It feels like my brain is running everywhere at once, and yet it all seems to root back to the same place.

*blinks*

I’m beginning to loose my mind…. and Scott’s just regaining his. Blah. We need to time this all better.

Derringer Meryl [36 days?] Out

Good News:

Condos Galore in Scott’s friend’s complex. Also, Mandarin has found me a job that pays well. (wahoo!)

Bad News:

It uber costs for us to bring our cats. Like, eight hundred dollars costs. Also, the good job (and I don’t doubt that it is a good Job, and i’m grateful she checked into it) is pushing carts… After work yesterday (six straight hours of standing up! wahoo!) i’m SO looking for a job where I can sit more.

I need to brush my resume (rezoomay) up so it looks better, and has my correct stats. Like now i can type fifty words per-minute (faster if it’s not from another piece of paper (like my own thoughts like i’m doing right here) and that impresses me. I can run word perfect (i’ve been brushing up) and Microsoft Word.

😉 and now i have SOME knowledge of the Legal field. (And I’ll be able to officially say that if I pass my final next week) I chose not to be a Legal Secretary for one main huge gelatinous reason…. it’s a way high stress job. I’m a high stress person by nature (which is funny because Scott’s as low stress as you get)

Anyway. Church. I need to get prettified.

Derringer Meryl [if you’da been there, if you’da seen it] Ou

I encourage the entire world to ignore my stupidity of yesterday. *shrugs* There is no way in heck i have the nerves of steel to cut back on kissing, and honestly I wasn’t really making that choice for both of us.

it was more of a me thing anyway.

You don’t want to know. It definitely falls under the “Once I tell you, you’ll scream and say you didn’t want to know.” Yeah. So… Hah.

Derringer Meryl [Being a Soccer Mom this morning] Out

I’ve been in an awful mean rude and distasteful mood all day. My apologies to Scott. :-S

I went to bed happy, I woke up angry. Don’t know why. I’m just lucky like that? 🙁

Derringer Meryl [I’d still like you to come visit] Out

So I pacify problems with kisses and cuddles

Diligently doubtful through all kinds of trouble

Then I find myself choking on all my contradictions

Or the lack thereof. I’ve decided (on my own, i’m sure there will be contesting of this) that I’m cutting back on the kissy-stuff.

It’s distracting

It’s unneeded (at this point)

and it causes problems.

Problem solved. I’ll just cut back.

Derringer Meryl [Groovin’ to the music] Out