Undone

If I die before I wake

At least in Heaven I can skate

‘Cos right now on earth

I can’t do jack

Without the man up on my back

Now Heaven would be a DJ

Spinnin’ dub all night long

And Heaven would be just kickin’

Back with Jesus packing my (bong)

And if you don’t believe in Jesus

Then Muhammed or Buddha too

And while the world is warring

We just sit back and laugh at you

If I die before I wake

At least in Heaven I can skate

‘Cos right now on earth

I can’t do jack

Without the man up on my back

Now when most people think of Heaven

They see those pearly gates

But I looked a little closer

And there’s a sign that says

“Do not skate”

So if you wanna come to my Heaven

Well we all gonna have a ball

And every one you know is welcome

‘Cos we got no gates or walls

If I die before I wake

At least in Heaven I can skate

‘Cos right now on earth

I can’t do

Without the man with it

Then I got to the gate

Pulled out a list that

I’d been callin’ fate

I’m sorry friend you can’t come in

You got a list here that doesn’t end

You’re mad ’cause I smoke dope

You teachin’ any classes in how to cope

I’ll find a place to rest my head

I’d rather be alone now that I’m dead

Like Christian Hosoi way back in ‘87

We’ll be bustin’ Christ airs until we get to Heaven

Think I really care that I missed biology

Got my education in stale fishology

With all your rules you got to chill

I’m gonna twist out like Mike McGill

Gonna twist out ‘cos I got the skills

Gonna twist out ‘cos I got the skills

Got the skills

Got the skills

Got the skills

Got the skills

Heaven is a halfpipe

If I die before I wake

At least in Heaven I can skate

‘Cos right now on earth

I can’t do jack

Without the man upon my back

(Heaven is a halfpipe)

If I die before I wake

At least in Heaven I can skate

(Heaven is a halfpipe)

‘Cos right now on Earth

I can’t do

Without the man with it

If I die before I wake

(If I die before I wake)

At least in Heaven I can skate

(Heaven is a halfpipe)

‘Cause right now on Earth

I can’t do

(‘Cos right now on Earth I can’t do)

Without the man with it

Method air judo air

I don’t care no

I don’t care

I don’t care

I don’t care

If I die before I wake

At least in Heaven I can skate

(Heaven is a halfpipe)

‘Cos right now on Earth

I can’t do

Without the man with it

Happy thanksgiving!

Derringer Meryl [heaven is a halfpipe] Out

A real quick post to share a new favorite song, thanks to my Friend and crack whore SunnyD who put this song in her newest fic Twilight Which is a friggin’ master piece, I’ll tell ya that (Especially in comparison with the other stories on FF.net that are just pieces.) *wicked grin*

Darling, I’m killed.

I’m in a puddle, on the floor

Waiting for you to return.

Oh, what a thrill,

Fascination’s got a law,

How you tease, how you leave me to burn.

It’s so deadly, my dear,

The power of having you near,

Until the day,

Until the world falls away,

Until you say there’ll be no more goodbyes.

I see it in your eyes

Tomorrow never dies.

Darling, you’ve won,

It’s no fun,

Martini’s, girls and guns,

It’s murder on our love affair.

That you bet your life, every night,

While you’re chasing the morning light,

You’re not the only spy out there.

It’s so deadly, my dear.

The power of wanting you near,

Until the day,

Until the world falls away,

Until you say there’ll be no more goodbyes.

I see it in your eyes,

Tomorrow never dies.

-Love always-

Derringer Meryl [5//337 R3l3453] Out

This is simple and quick. Pink said it best when she wrote Family Portrait or whom ever wrote it. It’s a nice song. I take it to heart, especially tonight

Momma please stop cryin, I can’t stand the sound

Your pain is painful and its tearin’ me down

I hear glasses breakin as I sit up in my bed

I told dad you didn’t mean those nasty things you

said

You fight about money, bout me and my brother

And this I come home to, this is my shelter

It ain’t easy growin up in World War III

Never knowin what love could be, you’ll see

I don’t want love to destroy me like it has done

my family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?

I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do anything

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?

I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t

leave

Daddy please stop yellin, I can’t stand the sound

Make mama stop cryin, cuz I need you around

My mama she loves you, no matter what she says

its true

I know that she hurts you, but remember I love

you, too

I ran away today, ran from the noise, ran away

Don’t wanna go back to that place, but don’t have

no choice, no way

It ain’t easy growin up in World War III

Never knowin what love could be, well I’ve seen

I don’t want love to destroy me like it did my

family

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?

I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do anything

Can we work it out? Can we be a family?

I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t

leave

In our family portrait, we look pretty happy

Let’s play pretend, let’s act like it comes

naturally

I don’t wanna have to split the holidays

I don’t want two addresses

I don’t want a step-brother anyways

And I don’t want my mom to have to change her

last name

In our family portrait we look pretty happy

We look pretty normal, let’s go back to that

In our family portrait we look pretty happy

Let’s play pretend, act like it goes naturally

In our family portrait we look pretty happy

(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)

We look pretty normal, let’s go back to that

(I promise I’ll be better, Mommy I’ll do

anything)

In our family portrait we look pretty happy

(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)

Let’s play pretend act and like it comes so

naturally

(I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t

leave)

In our family portrait we look pretty happy

(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)

We look pretty normal, let’s go back to that

(I promise I’ll be better, Daddy please don’t

leave)

Daddy don’t leave

Daddy don’t leave

Daddy don’t leave

Turn around please

Remember that the night you left you took my

shining star?

Daddy don’t leave

Daddy don’t leave

Daddy don’t leave

Don’t leave us here alone

Mom will be nicer

I’ll be so much better, I’ll tell my brother

Oh, I won’t spill the milk at dinner

I’ll be so much better, I’ll do everything right

I’ll be your little girl forever

I’ll go to sleep at night

I want my family to pretend once in a while.

It’s

a

VERY VERY VERY

stress

filled

week

Derringer Meryl [it ain’t easy growin’ up] Out

I heard this song, when having a particularly bad day at school, at life for that matter, and It made me all better.

^_^ Thanks to You Good Charlotte, and my ever so cute Chenny Bunny

Yeh, this song is dedicated,To every kid who ever got picked last in Gym class. To every kid who never had a date to no school dance. To everyone who’s ever been called a freak This is for you, Here we go!

Like the time in school where we got free lunch,

And the cool kids beat us up(reduced lunch)

And the rich kids had convertibles,

And we had to ride the bus(55)

Like the time we made the baseball team,

But they still laughed at us(you still suck!)

Like the time that girl broke up with me,

Cause I wasn’t cool enough(TRICK!)

Chorus:

Things, things, here we go!

The little things, little things

They always hang around

The little things, little things

They try to break me down

The little things, little things

They just won’t go away

The little things, little things

Made me who I am today

Bridge:

You wanna hate me now

But I won’t stop now

Cause I can’t stop now

Like the time mom went to the institute,

Cause she was breaking down(I just can’t take it)

Like the car we had that wouldn’t start

We had to walk to get around(can I get a ride?)

And that same year on Christmas Eve,

Dad went to the store(uhh….see you guys later)

We checked his room, his things were gone,

We didn’t see him no more(Dick!)

(Chorus)

(Bridge)

(Chorus)

And it always seems those little things,

They take the biggest part of me, break down,

I’m breaking down, I’m breaking down

I got a prom dress. Very classic in black and corset. However I had to sell my soul to my Mother. This may not sound like a bad thing, but here’s something you don’t understand.

My mother believes that I can’t get married on my own (it’s sad that she’s deeming me an old maid at the tender age of 17) so I have to find someone other than HIM to go with (what that really means…. I have next to no choice to whom I’m going with)

Like I said, sad, but the dress was worth it. I’d LOVE to go with HIM but, mom won’t let me….

And i doubt he wants to go to the prom with someone the same age as his sister. It’s sorta sad. Not incredibly, but somewhat. Not enough to cry.

Speaking of crying…. cause I have been, because…. I sorta ran out of some of my pills. . . . so I’m all shakey and what not.

Anyway–

Derringer Meryl [You wanna hate me now but I won’t stop now] Out

My Co-worker (a great fan of Avril Lavigne) Said this song reminded him of me…. and my inability to express my feelings for HIM (You know….)

I’m tugging at my hair

I’m pulling at my clothes

I’m trying to keep my cool

I know it shows

I’m staring at my feet

My cheeks are turning red

I’m searching for the words inside my head

[Pre-Chorus]

(Cause) I’m feeling nervous

Trying to be so perfect

Cause I know you’re worth it

You’re worth it

Yeah

[Chorus]

If I could say what I want to say

I’d say I wanna blow you away

Be with you every night

Am I squeezing you too tight

If I could say what I want to see

I want to see you go down

On one knee

Marry me today

Yes, I’m wishing my life away

With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good

It’s just a waste of time

What use is it to you

What’s on my mind

If ain’t coming out

We’re not going anywhere

So why can’t I just tell you that I care

[Pre-Chorus]

(Cause) I’m feeling nervous

Trying to be so perfect

Cause I know you’re worth it

You’re worth it

Yeah

[Chorus]

If I could say what I want to say

I’d say I wanna blow you away

Be with you every night

Am I squeezing you too tight

If I could say what I want to see

I want to see you go down

On one knee

Marry me today

Yes, I’m wishing my life away

With these things I’ll never say

What’s wrong with my tongue

These words keep slipping away

I stutter, I stumble off

Like I’ve got nothing to say

[Pre-Chorus]

(Cause) I’m feeling nervous

Trying to be so perfect

Cause I know you’re worth it

You’re worth it

Yeah

Yes I’m wishing my life away

With these things I’ll never say

If I could say what I want to say

I’d say I wanna blow you away

Be with you every night

Am I squeezing you too tight

If I could say what I want to see

I want to see you go down

On one knee

Marry me today

Yes, I’m wishing my life away

With these things I’ll never say

These things I’ll never say

Things I’ll Never Say, Avril Lavigne

Derringer Meryl [I never could say it to your face] Out