Undone

welcome to the butt crack of dawn! It’s my wedding day!!!!!

I’m so excited, and so very anxious. This day is only going to happen ONCE in my lifetime, and I want everything to be right.

Mostly, I just want everyone to smile and be happy until the pictures are done.

😀

Derringer Meryl [Not So Lonely, not for a while] Out

last night was my bachlorette party. I had a ton of fun. Thanks to Sukie, Antigone and Care Bear! They put this all together and I know Sukie spent a lot of time making it good.

A lot of my friends showed up, but I was really dissapointed to find out that Scott’s youngest sister wasn’t able to come.

Upon finding out why she wasn’t there, I was thoroughly incensed. I kept my cool nicely though…

I got a lot of really nice things. Some Lingerie and books and games. And a bucket of random stuff. 😀 It was a lot of fun. I love all of my friends.

I had a ton of fun. It was great to spend time with girls (normally I don’t like to) and I wish more of the people who were invited could have made it. 🙂 But I understand that Life is busy… and what not.

Anyway, I have to go fix my hair. Thanks again to Sukie, Antigone, and Care Bear for a wonderful time! 😉 you guys are the best, and I’ll remember last night forever.

Derringer Meryl [don’t know me] Out

Less than a week, and I’m still trying to think of what to get Scott. I’m thinking that it’ll be hard.

Scott suggested I write a poem. the thing with that is, i’m all sorts of doom and gloom poetry writer. I don’t think i’ve written a happy thing since I was in the fifth grade. So if that happens, you’ll know it took a lot of work.

Blah. It’s a house cleaning rampage…. so i’m kinda busy. Plus I’ve been calling around pricing things– so yeah.

I just thought i’d update a little. and stuff. I have an entire box of shoes. Just shoes. and all of them are coming with me to Scott’s house when I move. Hee. I love shoes!

Derringer Meryl [Crazy] Out

*sighs* Okay. So it’s like, nine days until Scott and I’s wedding, and I have to admit….

I haven’t gotten his present yet.

I don’t know what to do, or get. My idea sorta went sour (like three year old milk sour) and could be done, but wouldn’t be as cute as it may have been originally.

So I’m in a pickle. Nine days before my wedding, broke… and wondering– what would he love?

Now you see, I’m not a great gift giver. I need help (as in “Hey I love that. Why don’t you get me something like that?”) to get appropriate items. His siblings (a very helpful crew) have suggested a few things. I’ve thought something up to get him myself. I sorta want it to be sentimental though. Not a “present” but a “PRESENT!”

Not something you get everyday, but a wedding day gift. Blah. I’m uber lost. It’s not like you get married every day, ya know?

Derringer Meryl [Maybe, This?] Out

The Specialist found this song for me. I have to admit, I’ve fallen in love with it. Definately falling into the “wedding song” list. So I thought I’d lyric spew it. Cause’s it fun. And I can. Scott’s gone to bed. I’d love to go to sleep too, but my brain is buzzing a little too much. I’ve gained ten pounds. Amazingly, I’ve never felt so pretty.

I still feel fat though. isn’t that just contradictory? Who knows. I’m loved, and I can feel it in every cell of my body. and it’s fantastic. Like some kind of drug. 😀 Makes me all sorts of happy.

*looks around* I’d still like to loose this weight. Scott thinks I’m pretty, and I think I’m pretty (hehe, self absorbed) but man. I didn’t need that. I’m going to hope that it’s because I weighed myself after going to a buffet.

Right?

Oh and I have a huge unsightly bruise on my leg. Touch it and die you freaky freaky people.

Secret Smile, SemiSonic

Nobody knows it but you’ve got a secret smile

And you use it only for me

Nobody knows it but you’ve got a secret smile

And you use it only for me

So use it and prove it

Remoce this whirling sadness

I’m losing I’m bluesing

But you can’t save me from madness

Nobody knows it but you’ve got a secret smile

And you use it only for me

Nobody knows it but you’ve got a secret smile

And you use it only for me

So save me I’m waiting

I’m needing, hear me pleading

And soothe me, improve me

I’m grieving, I’m barely believing it now, now

When you are flying around and around the world

And I’m lying alonely

I know there’s something sacred and free reserved

And received by me only.

Derringer Meryl [Updating Fiend] Out