Undone

I think it just must be heavy news week or month, or something.

I think I might have a problem. I dont’ want anyone to have a heart attack, or anything…. Cause I’m healthy, and i’m not pregnant (so no worries on that front) and Yeah, i’m still living in my in-law’s basement. It kinda deals with that… in a way.

I think I have problems eating. *Waits for the laughter to die down* I mean, I don’t think I’m anorexic (Cause I sure as heck don’t look like Mary Kate or Ashley Olsen) and I know I’m not bulemic because I don’t throw up– but I still think my eating isnt’ healthy. I’m just gonna lay it out like it is.

I go for long periods of time not eating. Fairly long periods of time. Like entire days. I’d like to say it’s because of depression or something like that– but honestly life isn’t that bad. Sadly, and sickly, it’s a fairly concious thing for me. I don’t fit into any of my clothes anymore. I find myself disgusting to look at. My Face and neck are getting fatter and I can’t stand it.

I can’t stand myself.

Derringer Meryl [feeling stupid and moronic] Out