of gushing and mushing and this becoming a full on Mommy blog, can I say it’s an amazing thing to watch a child grow? Not only little Audrey (whom I realize at this point I’m not really WATCHING grow so much as I’m feeling her grow) but Katie who I look at her birthay pictures and think “WHOA! WTH!?” My little girl is getting so big, so fast. She can put her own shoes on now, and told Scott yesterday (after dragging her baby gate into our bedroom) “THIS WAS IN MY ROOM!” (She was mad that we gated her in) she still has a lot of room to grow, and while I think she’s absolutely amazing, i am not really a gushy mom who wells up in tears because her daughter is so beautiful, blah blah blah.
Mostly I well up in tears when she won’t go to bed and I hurt my back and I just want to sleep myself but I sleep like someone who has drank like 50 gallons of dr pepper.

Anyway, I suppose I should stray from my traditional topics (Twilight and babies) to say that I appreciate the person I am. I was watching Star Trek IV (warning, this is a story that Scott will roll his eyes at because I tell it so often) and I was asking him why they were on a Klingon Bird of Prey. I see the Geek glass half full and was really proud I knew what the hell a Klingon Bird of Prey is. I think I’m a special and unique person. I’m varied, and have multiple faucets. I wouldn’t really compare myself to a diamond, but I think i’m something shiney and neat. 🙂 I like learning about RANDOMLY stupid stuff (as Scott can attest I was learning about Azaria Chamberlain who is the baby in the phrase “A dingo ate my baby” where an Australian woman was not only wrongly imprisoned for the death of her child, she was said to have killed it in a most brutal manner. I oddly like learning about stuff like that. LIke the Chicken Coop Murders that The Changeling was based on. Yeah I’m weird.

Did you know that the little boy who helped kill those kids went on to be a mail man in Canada, got married and had two kids (both boys) Yeah. I do.

Also, I’m like… the biggest twilight geek ever. like… EVAR.

I also found an awesome Yoshi gamer quilt the other day. I’m trying to think of something to treat myself as a present because I never get a Birthday present because it’s so near Christmas … Not that the necklace that scott got me for V-day wasn’t awesome (cause SNAP it is!) but at the same time I never buy stuff for myself.. I dont’ think about myself ever! When i force myself to think about myself, it’s TOUGH. I did go to FYE (with a B-day Gift Certificate) and got myself some SWEET Anime that I was so looking forward to watching, but haven’t been able to yet because when I turn it on katie just says “NO NO NO!” until I turn it off. Blah. I’d love to own all of CCS (card captor sakura!! WHOO!) as it is the namesake of our next daughter (well not all of it, but I already own the Audrey Hepburn collection ;)) and not to mention I love LOVE LOVE myself some Cardcaptor Sakura. Seriously.

I also really want my books from shutterfly (beauty) printed off.. I love them. I have two I need to do. LOL I need to do a bunch of stuff. I want to have a collection of Katie pictures printed off and such too (scott did a bunch of them up to V-day last year! I need to do it again)

Ahh life. I feel good.

Derringer Meryl [happy day] Out

So, as I’ve made full aware, we are having two girls. I have been thinking A LOT about this baby’s blessing since Katie’s had so many problems :S

Anyway… My question is does this baby get her own blessing dress, or does she share with Katie. I am a proponant of sharing it.  However Scott raises the issue of “Who gets the dress later?” Most Ladies so far have said I’d keep the dress and they’d share it as they get older…

But I’m morbid and say “who gets it when I die?”

So what do you think?

First of all… TGIF

Nextly… let’s recap the week. Monday, i went to my dr’s appt, All is well. Our little one (stay tuned to the entry to hear her name) is still a girl, and smaller than Katie was when Katie was 21 weeks (Kate was already 1lb and then some, this baby is still only 15 oz, but they say it’s just fine!)  She got all the measurements and everything, and I started to feel VERY lightheaded. Turns out, the baby was laying on a blood vessel, that i kind of needed for… blood vessel activities… like… transporting blood and what not. But our Girl is still a girl, and I am still shocked!

Then the real fun kicked in. Scott had taken me out for a Belated Valentines get away, that we both really needed, and while we were off having fun, Katie was at Lorna’s vomiting up a storm. Poor thing. Well she thought she was having so much fun, she passed the junk onto me, which turns out, i don’t have the immune system of an almost 2 year old, and got pretty sick. I was agonizing at work with some bad cramps and bad stomach pains that eventually turned into vomiting (how embarassing) I was sick half of tuesday, fine wednesday (weirdly) and then sick on Thursday. 🙁 I had to go to L&D my dr’s office said between the vomiting, and the crying (I’d done a lot) and various other forms of losing fluid I wasn’t getting enough back in. SO, Yeah. They sent me to Labor and Delivery. I have read enough blogs of L&D nurses to know that if you’re there before 39 weeks and you don’t have baby legs sticking out of you, they’re probably thinking you’re crazy for being there. Everyone was very nice though. I felt like a moron that I couldn’t hydrate myself well. i asked the nurse what I could do to keep things down better. She suggested that if i’m prone to gulping water (I am) to have ice chips or warm water (as it’s less refreshing but hydrates the same) poor scott got dragged with me while  I got to sit in bed (uncomfortable bed) andlisten to our baby  kick the heartbeat monitor. She was having fun. At least someone was! LOL. They ran a bunch of tests, and found nothing wrong (over all) except a slight infection that I’ll be taking some meds for, but it wasn’t the root of my problem. They gave me a shot of phenegrine (or something like that) to help me not throw up. And man, the IV was great too (even though I hate needles, I knew I needed it to feel better) I came home and laid around for a while, and snoozed. I had like a handful of french fries and called it dinner. Yep. I’m a genius. I know. LOL. I feel much better today, and Have yet to feel like puking. I do think I’ll be resting tomorrow though to feel better. Also I need to round up someone to do nursery as I feel still pretty weak. I don’t want to pass this bug onto the kids (if possible, I’m sure if the parents knew they’d thank me!) I had plans of cleaning and laundry and such, but I’m fairly sure it will actually entail watching TV, and wrangling Katie…. and trying to let Scott sleep as much as possible.  Since Drama queen will be out, if anyone wants to come and help me wrangle Katie 😉 You’re welcome to. But let’s not judge my VERY VERY VERY messy house, ok? 😀

Mostly right now i”m craving a BIG OLE BURGER. Something big and greasy you’d get at a good ole mom and pop’s burger joint. 🙂  But, I’m trying not to push it. Heck this morning I thought I was pushing it with one of those mini breakfast sandwiches from BK

Oh, did you want to know the name? Since apparently some people know and others don’t and to be honest– I’m kind of forgetting who and who. Sorry. I’m just doing the mass “Hey guess what” type thing and just saying, yep her name is…. Audrey Sakura.

Don’t like it? Good for you 😉 It’s not your baby.

Derringer Meryl [need sleep… or food… or both!] Out

Despite what I’ve said in the past and how I felt in the past, I’m starting to get really excited to have this baby. I think a lot of the hesitation I felt with Katie (I felt unprepared and unaware… and nervous! I’d never had a baby before!) is pretty much gone. Now I’m just excited to watch another baby grow like I’ve watched Katie. it’s completely bitter sweet.  We’re still thinking on names, not completely set, though we are leaning towards one that the Ballerina suggested, simply because we thought it was cute, and well, we’re cute people. 😉

Still on a desperate hunt for middle names. I’m wanting to keep the Japanese middle name alive, which sounds completely STUPID as Scott and I are white as white can be (both of European decent) but people have thought I was asian before (why? I don’t know.) so I like to pretend in my mind sometimes. LOL.

Life has been busy and hectic. My workload has… quadrupled, unfortunately. So it doesn’t leave alot of time for blogging and chatting and being… sociable. So if I ignore your chat or something it’s because i’M trying desperately to focus on the customer. We’re hoping that things will settle down for us eventually. But if we’re busy it means we aren’t being fired. so that’s a good point. 😉

Scott got a new car, which he loves. He misses his little red sports coup quite a bit, but at the same time it wouldn’t fit two carseats, so upgrade we must!

I better get back to it.
Derringer Meryl [blah blah blah] Out

So I have to say that not a lot gets under my skin. Most of everything that does involves talking. Or I guess to be more broad, the auditory noises that people consider to be speaking in this day and age.  I cannot tell you how many times I remember my Debate teacher talking about how real communication isn’t JUST about being a great speaker, It’s also about being a great listener. I am usually pretty eloquent in my mind, but in reality I’m a much better listener than I am a speaker. I wish people could listen to what people are saying more clearly.

This is the number one pet peeve I have. I have to admit, I’m not always captain attentive. I’m not always 100% on things, but when it’s important, i listen. To me, not listening is a sign of disrespect, and It gets me all bent out of joint. I could scream after repeating myself a few times. I don’t like listening to myself talk. I only on occasionally will ramble on to fill the space of dead air. I’d rather listen to music, but I think, to a point, everyone deserves to be listened to … I feel like sometimes I’m not listened to, and not to strike an too familiar chord, I don’t mean I’m a wounded and hurt that my family isn’t oohing and ahhing over my verbal spewings, because honestly, i don’t want to be patronized. I just want to legitimately be heard when it’s important. Wouldn’t you?

Among all my other auditory annoyances are people who say HUH? like they are about to vomit the word. It’s disgusting. If you’d like an auditory of it, I’ll say it for you in the most obnoxious voice ever. Seriously. You hear the word HUH at least 40 times a day in a way that sounds like dry heaving … you’d want to stab the next person who said it too. I hate when people JUST WONT STOP TALKING. It’s not communication unless both sides are participating. I hate it when people hum while they are waiting for a short period of time (like less than 2 minutes) it’s not like you’ve had time to get SO bored that you need to HUM constantly, especially in my ear. SO STOP. People who talk TOO loud, I suppose with this I should include those who LAUGH too loud. I like things to go where they belong. Work CAN be fun, but not I drank $200 worth of alcohol and now I think everything is SOOO Dang funny… Also I hate people who feel the need to stand behind my cubical and talk.  I don’t have four walls, I have two. and 1/4th. I’m in the hallway.  I wish people would just sit down and shut up!

I think my ADD is particularly auditory. I am not so distracted by light or motion as I am auditory things. I use music to block it out a lot.  I LOVE music. 😀

Derringer Meryl [music gets the best of me] out