Undone

I fell in love with this song, even though it’s country (ish) sounding. But– Well.

I’m a complex person. I like someone and at the same time, I feel a hate and contempt towards them that cannot even been described with words– and it’s not even possible to understand, because there is no apparent reason for the hate.

Well thanks Sheryl Crow, and Kid Rock–

Livin’ my life in a slow hell

Different girl every night at the hotel

I aint seen the sun shine in 3 damn days

Been fuelin’ up on cocaine and whisky

Wish I had a good girl to miss me

Lord I wonder if I’ll ever change my ways

I put your picture away

Sat down and cried the day

I can’t look at you while I’m lyin’ next to her

I put your picture away, sat down and cried today

I can’t look at you while I’m lyin’ next to her

I called you lastnight in the hotel

Everyone knows but they wont tell

But their half hearted smiles tell me

Somethin’ just ain’t right

I been waitin’ on you for a long time

Fuelin’ up on heartaches and cheap wine

I ain’t heard from you in 3 damn nights

I put your picture away

I wonder where you been

I can’t look at you while I’m lyin’ next to him

I put your picture away

I wonder where you been

I can’t look at you while I’m lyin’ next to him

I saw ya yesterday with an old friend

It was the same ole same “how have you been”

Since you been gone my worlds been dark & grey

You reminded me of brighter days

I hoped you were comin’ home to stay

I was head of the church

I was off to drink you away

I thought about you for a long time

Can’t seem to get you off my mind

I can’t nderstand why we’re living life this way

I found your picture today

I swear I’ll change my ways

I just called to say I want you to come back home

I found your picture today

I swear I’ll change my ways

I just called to say I want you to come back home

I just called to say, I love you come back home

How many pictures have I put away?

Too many– I’m sure. I do not plan to find them again.

Derringer Meryl [I stumble over my words like] Out