Undone

I’m hoping this link works, for those of you who are very excited at the prospect of me finding someone nice enough to get me a flower.

I think it’s pretty super. Hopefully Geocities will be nice and agree to let you all see it. 🙂

A Flower for me? How sweet! 😀 I’m a freak and I take pictures of my flower. I might have to set up another picture at another server so the whole thing doesn’t cave. 🙂

Incase the first server doesn’t work, like a poo-head cause it’s Geocities (You know i love you Geocities! I know Meryl, I know.) so yeah, Flower again!

Anyway– I’m gonna… go clean heh. and then … I’m gonna go buy some more stuff for tomorrow. 😉 And i’m not wearing mascara.

Derringer Meryl [Here’s Hopin’] Out

I’ve been thinking. Shock, Gasp, horror, yes, thinking. About Scott. First off, I’m not going to mention some of the events of tonight’s chat. And i’m gonna skip them, because I don’t need Apologies for things that don’t need them. Besides, we learned stuff about each other tonight.

Scott likes red, which I should have figured out. I didn’t, because I wasn’t really thinking about it, I guess. He likes the smell of Strawberry Candy (Is listening to Slick Shoes Cover of Candy) and a bunch of other stuff, Mainly this entry is to cover what i’m too chicken to say to him even over IM. Why? Because I’m a geek, and I have problems speaking my mind sometimes.

*coughs* What I find Cute about Scott Please refer to earlier where I say that i use cute instead of all those other words that girls use (ie: Foxy, Hot, sexy… etc.) because I’m, once again, unable to accurately speak my mind at times. 😀

1. His smile. It often reduces me to giggles, which makes my family all turn and look at me like a dork. It’s sorta crooked, but that makes it all the more adorable. He can’t see it, but I”m a pile of goo. (GOO!)

2. His voice. I seriously love to hear him talk. It’s low, but I can always hear what he’s saying, unlike some low talkers I know… Anyway. I love to hear him tell stories. 🙂

3. His hair. It’s all spikey and blonde, and flipped up in the front. Adorable. Makes me smile just thinking about it. *mutters* I’ve often resisted the urge to touch it… *shrugs* I’m an odd girl. I like to ruffle people’s hair

4. The way he rambles when he’s nervous. (Derringer Meryl, striking fear into the hearts of men… heh.) It’s adorable. Makes me smile, yet again.

5. How he admits when he’s said something stupid. Signifying his mistake with the need for a shovel. 🙂 It doesn’t happen often, but at least he’s willing to admit it when he does make a mistake!

Oh My heck– I’m so tired. I promised myself I’d work on homework while I talked to Scott tonight,but I got side tracked. Heh. 🙂

Anyway. I’m tired. You’re probably tired too. That list isn’t done. I could do more, I’m jsut… tired…. Oh.. Okay, so I’ll write more later.

Derringer Meryl [Baby I know I”m a man who’s made mistakes] Out

I’ve been invited to have Dinner at Scott’s on Sunday. This is gonna be the first time I formally meet his family. I’m sorta nervous, but really excited at the same time.

My goal:

To find an outfit that, while modest, causes him to be breath taken.

*nods* Off to the mall I go! Long Live the shopping spree! Down with homework!

Derringer Meryl [Thank you for reading] Out

Things i’ve learned lately:

1. No matter what, it’s really not a good idea to try to do the Night at the Roxbury thing while skating. Really. Don’t try it, unless you like falling down. (See: What Is Love? [7″ Mix] – Haddaway)

2. Sometimes the best laid plans give way to the most memorable moments.

3. As said by someone very wise: “Why is it when your life is in danger you can only yell one or two words?” (See: IRON GATE! or possibly BIG STICK!)

4. What could be more fun than having your own inside joke? (See: Mango the Zombie and Necro-Nancy)

5. Sometimes the simplest things are the sweetest. These simple things can also cause certain people to giggle insanely for long amounts of time, and possibly grin at unexpected moments.

6. Having Tenth Kingdom Marathons are also known to make certain people grin as well.

7. I am the entertainment of my family. I am the newest soap opera– I suppose — and I love it.

8. Songs on Repeat while writing can make you smile as you remember people…. and moments.

9. Every near death experience remembered makes me appreciate everyone I know who is alive.

10. Every scary experience, say falling in love, is worth it.

I got a check in the mail today, and I’m so excited. I’m going to FINALLY get my Inuyasha with it, unless I can think of something else to do with it. I really should save it– but I want to have something to do while i’m unable to move during Spring Break (I’m getting the little lovelies removed off of my foot again. Hopefully they’ll stay away this time.) I really hope I don’t get scheduled next wednesday, but I know Guts or maybe Monkey would be willing to switch with me. 😉 I’m getting to the point where I don’t even want to go to work, cause i’d rather hang out with Scott and his friends.

(looks at her TV) huh, my DVD has a scratch or a defect. Hm.

*coughs and goes back to her previous statement* I know that might make no sense to anyone here, but i love work. I spend a lot of my time there. They are my only social outlet.

Looks like my counter broke 1700, thanks guys and gals!

Bah, I must go and cook and see when I work.

Derringer Meryl [Angel from my Nightmare] out

I just got back from 50 first dates. Great movie, not ranking up with Wedding Singer, but still pretty good. I’m thinking it was the company more than anything. He got me popcorn and a drink, and honestly, I’m one of those people where it’s the small things that count, because i miss them so much. I’ve never been on a date to the movies before where the guy pays for me, and buys me popcorn and a drink. I’m really not that hard to please. *smiles* It also makes me happy that I’m going to go play D&D again this week. He’s even going to the trouble to have his friends come and get me. *smiles*

Once again. The small things impress me the most. Did I mention he stopped to get me a rose from Walmart? *blushes* Flowers from guys in the past limited to required prom exchanges. And one bouquet of roses and daisies that i got from a guy I never met because he stood me up on our first date. (his Mom told him no.)

If you’re a regular reader of my blog (and possibly my writing journal) then you know i’m kinda delusional sometimes (see Ally McBeal, that kind of delusional) where I stop and think that people are actually caring enough to do something as nice as get me flowers. I was really touched.

And i love to hear stories about his friends. About their death defying trips around his town. And I love how he’s not … how he isn’t deterred by the fact that i’m quiet. (Except of course when it comes to Sean Astin, how could I be quiet?) I love how his smile is kinda crooked, it’s so adorable. I love how I can’t stop grinning when I’m thinking about him. I love how his friends make me feel included. I don’t think i’ve felt this right ever in my entire life.

And that’s the scary part. I’m afraid. I’ve never fit in anywhere. I’ve always felt like the little girl playing with the big kids– until now.

Mostly I love how when he hugs me …. i feel like nothing in the world could go wrong.

Oh, and as a quick ps, He kissed me. 🙂 and I liked it.

Derringer Meryl [Back and Forth] Out