Undone

I”m working on a beautious thing …

an Orlando Bloom Layout. Ohh the internet is a good thing. *smirks* now, i have to go do my good deed for the day. hee hee. i’m taking an extra shift on at work. huzzah!

anyway, loves, oh, and let’s watch this blog turn into something beautiful, together, okay?

Derringer Meryl [i’mnotalwaysthisbitter] Out

Giddy, that’s the only way to discribe how I feel right now.

Sure i had a uber shibby day. I sucked it up on my Math Test, I ate some chocolate cake which I should probably burn off by doing some pilates, but– i’m not going to right now– hee hee. Then I went to work, still unable to count, and talked to Friendjamin about Monkey. Nothing bad, just venting my frustrations. Poor Friendjamin. He’s ill. I simply must make him some soup to make him feel better, especially after all the great advice he gave me. *twitches* Damn. It’s that time again. Time for the late night Zoloft twitches. God. I hate those.

Right, what makes the day all good. I got an email back from the great people at Xbox, and they say they want to hire me (for like three days, i hope) and i get the best pay ever!! (that i’ve had) $11 an hour! And I plan on working as many hours as possible. I dont’ mind doing odd jobs… err that’s a bad word for it.. i dont’ mind doing something that requires me to dress up like a freak (even though it’s not really freak attire) as long as i get the moolah after.

i know that makes me sound SO much like a whore, but c’mon. I’m a starving college student, puleaze! I’m in the need of money. I’m not greedy, the college is. Quality education, i’m teaching myself. Jerks. Hmph.

Anyway, I have to get up early to go to class (huzzah) and then possibly back to work. I dont’ mind though– cause i need the hours. hours=moolah.

Oh. Want to know what I heard the faucker monkey was planning on doing? Switching out to my old bosses store.

The one he has the major honking hots for.

Derringer Meryl [everyone but me you faucker] Out

I think i’ve fallen in love. I know it’s sudden, but i’m pretty sure he loves me too.

It’s magical. And now, the beauty of love, as he sweeps me off my feet in a way that only he could. Romantically, slightly coarse, but it doesn’t matter as long as the real emotion is there. You know, the kind that leaves you breathless at night?

I can’t imagine a love more special than ours. How exciting. *flutters eyelashes* We met after Halo Night at Gert’s house, and ever since then I’ve been falling deeper and deeper in love. What makes it so exciting, is that he feels the same way in return. I giggle like a school girl at the thought. *hee hee*

I’d like to introduce to you, Simple Plan. LOL, yeah, i’m sure i had you going there. *Laughs bitterly* Sorry, I was channeling Eliza there for a minute or two. I’m sure you know that Simple Plan isn’t actually one person, but several people composing a band, which plays some seriously kick ass music. (As well as still romantically touching. Huzzah for them!)

I’m sure the band likes the thought that Artemis (she doesn’t like the a in her name though, never call her that. Grr.) from work has talked me into thinking that Simple Plan is positively the best band EVAH! I believe her. Seriously. Cause she and I think a lot alike, and actually get a long which is shocking for a girl and I to get a long. I swear I’m like the anti-girl. But then again, so is she (and yet pro-looking girly, like me.) so she isn’t trying to get into every guy’s pants like some girls, and i find that very refreshing. Huzzah!

Anyway, On with tonights, obscenely late Lyric spew. (BTW< i was ‘at class’ so i couldn’t do this earlier. Heh heh heh.) Oh and a double BTW, this weekend Red is coming home from college. I just hope some of the time this weekend will be spent on me, and not the shattered relationship with that Jackass she’s dating. (Sorry, I’m extreme prejudice. Sue me.)

Right, now for Simple Plan, I’d Do Anything

Another day is going by

I’m thinking about you all the time

But you’re out there

And I’m here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head

‘Cuz so many things were left unsaid

But now you’re gone

And I can’t think straight

This could be the one last chance

To make you understand

I’d do anything

Just to hold you in my arms

To try to make you laugh

Some how I can’t put you in the past

I’d do anything

Just to fall asleep with you

Will you remember me?

‘Cuz I know

I won’t forget you

Together we broke all the rules

Dreaming of dropping out of school

And leave this place

To never come back

So now maybe after all these years

If you miss me have no fear

I’ll be here

I’ll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand

And I just can’t let you leave me once again

I’d do anything

Just to hold you in my arms

Try to make you laugh

Some how I can’t put you in the past

I’d do anything

Just to fall asleep with you

Will you remember me?

Cuz i know I won’t forget you

I close my eyes

And all I see is you

I close my eyes

I try to sleep

I can’t forget you

Nanana (2 x)

And I’d do anything for you

Nanana (2 x)

I’d do anything

Just to hold you in my arms

To try to make you laugh

Some how I can’t put you in the past

I’d do anything

Just to fall asleep with you

To fall alseep with you, you ya

Cuz I know I won’t forget you

Okay, not every girl would find this song romantic, so what? I do. I also Find their song Addicted A very good song too. Brinking on romantic, and emotionally rewarding.

Derringer Meryl [Is it friday yet?] Out

is it possible to be unearthly tired and energized beyond all belief, at the same time? The way I feel right now, that’s it. Like all I want to do is sleep, and probably never EVER wake up, but it’s like… i’m going insane. I’m just… so tired, that I can’t sleep. And i can’t say i hate it. I got my pillow cases done, and I did the dishes, scrubbed the rug in the living room, wrote a preface to my book, and cataloged some of my poetry… not to mention wrote a huge email to Marco about how … oh, nevermind.

i’m just like … i don’t know. I imagine this is how a meth-addict feels … like … wired all the time. Like someone stuck your hand on a live power line and you’re just jitterin’ until it stops, and you don’t know when that’s going to be.

*sighs* If ever.

I decided the Journal that Red gave to me is dedicated to Eliza story ideas. I wrote the beginning to my story in there…. it’s obviously going to need to be done, and re-done, and done again… and what not….

AHA! I knew i wasn’t crazy. There is a song by a group called “Cracker” and the song is Low. I’m SO happy! Cause i mean, sure i’m a little crazy, but pshaw, i’m not crazy enough to make up a whole song in my head.

Right?

Of course. Anyway. I have to do something more now, I”m thinking about scrubbing the shower, or maybe I should read a fan fiction… i think it’s because i can’t bite my nails… I tried to even lick my fingers off today at lunch at Red’s house (she’s leaving for college this week :'() and got a mouth full of nasty fingernail polish…. stupid fingernails.

Right. So I’m going to.. .uh, Go read or something now, anything to make me not so…..

Antsy

Derringer Meryl [I wrote her off for the tenth] Out

I have to be up and ready to go by seven, to go march in a parade. For three hours. In the HOT HOT HOT sun. Which hates me. and I imagine i have to walk straight. Which I can’t do if I’m not awake. I can’t be awake because …. i haven’t gotten decent sleep in a while.

anyway. I have to wear shorts tomorrow. and to wear shorts one has to have shaved legs, and I don’t. so i’m cutting this short to go do that. Because… i have to wear shorts and my legs resemble that of a hobbit….

Hobbit Name: Primula Bunce of Brockenborings

Elven Name: Ireth Felagund (Could it Be more Ugly?)
Derringer Meryl [Hobbit Legs] Out