Undone

Wow. I went to my first D&D session last night, not without some grief from my dad. Which made me want to kick him in the shins… a lot. But then we got there, and watched some Invader Zim, which I previously had only HEARD about from other people, and I laughed. I guess I should have warned Scott, and his friends, earlier, but i laugh obscenely loud. It was a lot of fun. In a way i envy Scott for having a group of friends who seem so nice and very… just… well, they’re all very awesome people. *raises her eyebrow* makes me want to not introduce him to my co-workers… sorta. I don’t know how to explain it. I just don’t think most of my co-workers think of me as close of friends as I think of them. Except Marco and sometimes Guts. Guts never gets on my case for being different from everyone else, so that’s really nice. *nods*

I know what you mean about jinxing things. I’m afraid to get too excited about things, because just as soon as i get happy– something bad happens… The other shoe drops, so to speak. But I can’t help but smile. And I feel better about myself. I’ve came from a lot of relationships where the other person was just going along because they didn’t want to hurt me, and i’m afraid of that again… but I keep reminding myself, Scott approached me. And i couldn’t be happier. I feel like I could burst.

And sometimes I don’t like to talk about it, because i’m afraid the other person will be scared of my enthusiasm. *sad eyes* It’s happened before.

But I know I want to hang out and do something again sometime… 😀

Derringer Meryl [Giddy] Out