Undone

Possibly the worst day at work ever.

I’ve been told that i’m whiny (okay so YES, I am, but you got to do what you do best, right?), Lame, *mutters off a few questionable words she’s been called* and i’m not feeling so awesome about it.

Cause everyone loves being called a bitca, and it’s so much fun being told that you’re the wet blanket and annoying….. I know I am. I know i’m the outcast at work. I know that no one there likes me that much, and that they’d really like to vote me off of the little island that is the store. I’m not their favorite person. I’m not anyone’s favorite ANYTHING. Cause i’m me, I keep it real, and i say what needs to be said. And Yeah, I’m a nice girl. I’m trying to stop swearing so much, and i’m trying to be nicer, and i smile my way through being called all these horrible things… and i don’t know how i’m going to do it anymore.

really. I love my job. and I love working there, i really enjoy Artemis and Gert…. They’re funny and they’re great. They tease me, but it’s okay, because i know them more than i know THE MOUTH…. i know it’s insane … i know that i need to give him more of a chance to get to know me… and me to know him….

but from what i’ve seen so far I dont’ care to know him. At all. Ever. No. I hope he gets his tongue cut out by some thief on the street. I wish he would…. I wish he could just learn to control that blasted MOUTH OF HIS! It’s like he has no consideration for another human being ever.

I’d never consider myself ‘straight-laced’ not even. No way. But I figure, first comes the friendship, then the casual joking and the calling of names. When I know he doesn’t really mean it. NOW, I don’t know that. It’s a thing that I don’t know. I don’t have a tough skin. I’m not a brave girl. And yeah, when he calls me a bitch, i want to sit down and cry. But I can’t because there’s work to be done, and things to do.

*mutters* What a jerk.

Oh Yeah. I have a test tomorrow… .how much does that suck?

Derringer Meryl [Exhausted] Out