Undone

Despite the fact I have a poetry website (and if you can’t find it, i’m not telling you, you’ll have to weasel it out of Red… which she’ll never [hopefully] give to anyone. Unless someone is smart enough to find it…) i’m posting this bit of poetry here. With out further ado…. I present my latest work Fears

You inspire
something new
beautiful
luminous
exciting
inside of me
and I
i’m scared
scared of what
you could do
reject
rip
forget
leave
love—
and i’m so
attatched
to you
i love your
smell
laugh
smile
eyes
mannerisms
and i
don’t know
what you think
about me
about–
us
and
I don’t know
if there even is
an us
for me
to worry about
or am i
just deluding
myself again
and mostly
when it comes to
–us–
the thing
i fear the most
is me
what i could do
to make you
hate me
fear me
despise–
me
and i know
i can do it
i’ve done it
before
and i’m trying
so hard
to be so….
very….
careful….
this time.

secret
whispers
softly
lie
inside of me.

Derringer Meryl [Thoughts race] Out