Undone

I recently complained that no one pays attention to me.

That’s a lie.

They pay plenty of attention to me when it’s useful to them. “Oh Meryl, You can help us in the yard!”, “OH Meryl, can you do this for the class? It’d be appreciated!”

BLAH BLAH BLAH. DO your homework, do your chores, do this do that, do your job, keep your head on straight

don’t have a mental break down Meryl!

Lord. *shakes her head* I’m tired. Oh God am I tried. I’m tired of all this work, and the fact that’s all I’m good for. Work. I”m a little work pony or something. Freak. *sighs* I do not mind helping out. I simply cannot do everything.

And whether you know it or not, YOU have asked me to do it all. I can’t solve problems, I can’t figure life out, and I don’t have time to write emails, hell!

I’m writing in here when I just told my mom I needed to do homework…. dammit. I can’t do everything. DOn’t ask me to, dont’ bug me about it…. just DON’T!

Okay? It’s not personal, no, it’s about me. Stop making it about YOU cause it’s ME! I don’t care what you think, I’m having some problems managing here, and I really don’t have TIME to listen to YOUR insecurities right now.

ALRIGHT? and I sure as hell dont’ have time to chop some dumb limbs up in the back yard. Not right now, not in the middle of the day. I’m a little busy.

If you needed me, you should have asked me to do it this morning, when it was slightly cool outside.

Derringer Meryl [Ready to Scream] Out

p.s. Oh yeah, dont’ tell me you feel flustered, and you dont’ think I understand your responsibilities and crap. I feel it, because everytime YOU’RE stressed it gets dumped on ME. Okay? I didn’t ask you to take on five things at once. I didn’t ask to be YOUR punching bag. I dont’ need it, and I surely dont’ want it. If you can’t treat me right, like a normal person treats another, then leave me alone.