Undone

Now I don’t expect that many of you have seen Love Hina but it has the ever so classic love triangle.

Boy Likes girl

girl likes other boy

other boy totally oblivious.

I hate that. I mean, I understand it, totally, beyond all belief. I just hate the thought that you could be stuck like that. Alone while the person you pine for, pines for someone else. I live it everyday– with an added element.

Girl likes Boy

Boy likes girl, but not that way, likes other girl

Other girl likes boy, but is friends with girl.

Girl wishes to rip her hair out.

I can’t break up my friends. That’s morally wrong. I know it. I hate the fact that the idea runs through my head daily. I hate the fact that I see myself holding his hand, and being something more than just a friend– something better.

Because of the one day that happens once a year, where we all, as a human race, have to celebrate the wonderful-ness that is couples. Kill me for the love of pete! I don’t necessarily despise the holiday, but c’mon, you haven’t seen a horrid day until you’ve seen everyone at school get flowers but you.

That’s why when you’re little, they force you get valentines for everyone. They save the single person awareness when you’re really vulnerable. GAG ME! I just want to die sometimes when the whole class of girls have their teddy bears, and their roses, and their Tommy Boy scented Valentines. All I have is a blanket, which gets pretty burdensome to carry all day (I love it all the same, I sleep with it every night, or I don’t sleep at all) and a Penguin I stole from my nephew.

At least I have a Valentine this year. Sorta. I mean he’s a few hundred miles away…. and he’s probably asleep by this time at night– but sleeping is for happy people. I can’t wait to get his CD.

Derringer Meryl [making friends with shadows on the wall] Out