Undone

Okay, so it’s early, my party just ended…..

and i’m a little less than cloud nine…. Blah. I could blither on about it, but I don’t want to, because I’m over it. I’ll say it over and over again, because I am.

Really. I swear.

I don’t care that the cutest boy i’ve ever known in the whole universe has no interest in me, because I’m just a quarter crush, if not less. I’m a crazy excentric little girl, who isn’t ever going to be anything past the age of 5.

I’m really alot older tahn that. But I”ve always been a mature 5 year old. Always. I’m just over developed for my age.

Right.

Havent’ you ever just wanted someone to tell you a lie. You know it’s a lie, but it feels so good to be safe in that lie, even for just a little while. Safe in knowing that it’ll all be okay and that they love you.

and even though you know it’s a lie, you feel safe because anything that is spoken by them seems right and natural…..

I’m over it.

i’m running in circles

after things that aren’t there

after you

i wanted to win you so badly

wanted to see you and i together

but before i had started

i had already lost

to so many other things

so many other people

i knew what i wanted

but then you were gone

i know where i was headed

but you had already been won.

you still don’t understand

how we prize you

how we fight for you

your heart

i wanted it

so badly i was blinded

i couldn’t see you

your face

so badly i was deafened

i couldn’t hear

hear your good-byes

now you’re gone

so far gone

you

all i ever thought i wanted

was you

Poem Courtesy of ME

Derringer Meryl [So over it] Out