Undone

I’m tired, and I sold my Dance Dance Disney’s Remix today.

Wanna know the significance?

I’m sure you’re just screaming yes, oh yes.

Well It was HIS before I bought it, used of course, and so i’ve sorta held onto it for no particular reason…. other than I’m insane and i am extreme with the stupid-ness.

So Now that i sold it, I suppose i’m smart…. not really. i’m still as dense as ever, just not so attatched to HIM anymore, and that’s okay, cause HE was bad for me anyway….. But in a good way– Does that make sense? He’s a funny guy, and a great friend, but he’d be bad for me as a boyfriend….. that makes sense right? I’m just sorta ummm, distructive as a girlfriend, I (unfortunately) destroy things nearer to me however. (bums out)

Anyway, i was trying to convince my English class today that being apathetic to society is a good thing, and that we all pretty much do it anyway, we might as well admit to it. We were talking about Humanity, and what makes us human, I happened to raise my hand in class and say, “I want to speak on behalf of Bartleby, (a character in the story) Being withdrawn from society allows a life full of joy, free from sorrow and woe. Without the concern and burden of those around us, we can live a carefree and quiet life.”

They didn’t believe me.

I told them I did it everyday. That I’d prefer not to go out to school, or to any place that wasn’t work, but I do, because I HAVE to. There is no preference to it, I must go daily to school. Living withdrawn from society allows you to examine more wholly what society’s ills are, and contemplate them more in depth. There are no concerns for others feelings or emotions, because in your world, it’s just you.

It may be sick– But the Human Dependency on one another is one I tend to free myself of eventually.

I might die trying, but that’s a risk….. I’m more than willing to take.

Derringer Meryl [Ah Bartleby! Ah Humanity!] Out