Undone

I thought I’d update, It’s been a few days

You know awkward silence? Don’t you hate that? I mean a few minutes of it and someone could say something, or even leave. At work an awkward silence could last for four hours.

Could you imagine? Four hours of nothing but small talk, and — silence. Dull city. Luckily sometimes we have customers, but for some reason it’s been so slow.

Anyway.

I don’t remember where I went or what I was drinking, I know it made me sick, and I’m not denying that I get this way when I try and get over you. I get this way when I try and get over you….

Courtesy of [Stabbing Westward] the song is Sometimes it hurts I’ve most recently fallen in love with it, cause it makes me feel better about the stupid choices I’ve made in the past few weeks. I just wish I could take some of them back.

None of them were huge mistakes, like life shattering baby making mistakes, just little things.

You know like in the movie Sliding Doors it had Gweneth Paltrow, and it was all about “What if You had been ten minutes early instead of ten minutes late, what if you had caught the train instead of missing it” Type stuff. While you do need a British to English dictionary to watch it, I wonder what my life would be like if I took the road not taken….

What if I had been wise enough to choose one fate over another. What if I had the knowledge I had now, why can’t I go back and make a better choice.

And why do I have to live in regret!

Life has been so dull lately. I went to have some fun, and all that found me was a deep and endless stupor.

How jolly great, isn’t it? Oh yes, to live a life that seems to never end and has no glimmer of hope, no reason to keep going.

no light at the end of the tunnel. And the little train doesn’t know why it keeps moving forward, but does nonetheless, because it was told to do so.

Derringer Meryl [Sometimes it hurts so much to loose the one you love] Out