Undone

This is the place where I sit

This is the part where I love you too much

This is as hard as it gets

Cause I’m getting tired of pretending I’m tough

I am, very tired of pretending to be tough. I know that someone could tell me it’s all right, but it feels like every time I become close to anyone– they leave me.

I’m being transferred from my work, to another store. HE isn’t coming with. Sure this opens up the opportunity for us to date….

But my self confidence is Nil. I feel numb more often than not. Unsure of what to feel, unsure of feeling. If I feel, then i’d become attached, and then they’d leave me, or I’d leave them, not by choice.

I’m tired of crying- wanting to cry. I just want someone to love me.

Let me clarify love: I have my family, my friends–

Sometimes you need (*you meaning girls) a guy to tell you everything will work out okay, and then you have to trust them enough for it to come true.

If you can make it okay, say it. If you’re saying it to say it, don’t. I’m tired of the heart aches that come from little fibs and lies. If someone said they were going to do something, normally it didn’t matter if they did or not. But I’ve been lied to and had promises broken in my face that meant a lot to me, and not much to them. The aplogy (if any) That followed was meaningless, and heartless.

I’m tired of half-true apologies. I want someone to say they’re sorry and mean it. So few people can apologize and actually mean it.

There’s something to look for in a mate. Must apologize well.

Must be willing to tolerate sporadic crying jags.

Derringer Meryl [This is the place where I’m falling apart] Out