Undone

When I chose my ever so lovely outfit for today, I thought to myself “Look at the snow! It’s melting. I’m so excited. I can wear my sandles and not freeze!” I giddily picked my outfit out around this prospect, my skirt is spring-y and light.

We got hit with a snow storm. Now, With my spring-y and light skirt, i will be wearing combat boots. Stylish, and keep the snow out. *frowns* I hate snow. It’s conspiring against me to make me do stupid things today. *kicks the snow without shoes on* COLD! Ahhhhhhhh!

Right. So I”ll be looking like a dork, Royally, with my boots. Which I now officially hate. *mutters*

Derringer Meryl [mumbles] Out

If you just joined us, as in you didn’t read my three entries for saturday– I suggest you do so– 🙂 Just for the sake of how funny I think I am, and the entries are. Heh. Anyway. Tonight, D&D.

I didn’t do much. Scott’s friends (as they so are called because I can’t say I know them well enough to create them aliases) picked me up because he had to work really late at work. (really late reads: Nine or so) and they had a hard time finding my house. Shock of a lifetime. Not really. I should make my own instructions on how to get here. If I had been thinking, I would have. Shame on me. Oh well, at least I have the fact that I’m worrying about Essays and Chapters to be read and make up homework, that’s what i’m working on. It would have been nice to get them some better instructions, but alas, there is no use sighing over the past.

I was still pretty quiet this time. IMO anyway, I still blended some, but I have to say, i’m still feeling like a bit of an outsider. Scott and I showed them some Legendary Frog Stuff, and Eight Bit Theater D&D which they seemed to enjoy. 🙂 That was nice. I didn’t eat again. I think I have some sort of phobia about eating in front of a large group of people. I don’t know. I think it shows how comfortable I was with Scott on our first date, because I did eat on our date. *nods* I think it’s because when I’m nervous, I feel queasy (my stomach is my ‘weak link’) and so when i feel queasy, I don’t want to eat. In the long and short of it– It must just be some sort of neuroses.

I have to admit, with no offense to Scott’s Friends who drove me down, (i really appreciate it!) I enjoyed the ride back up, simply because while there was music, we could still talk to one another. I think I’ve fallen into this happy place where I like to talk (as well as listen) and it’s the place where I used to be. Before I entered the uncertainty of adolescence I was a real social butterfly. I loved to talk to people, and i knew everyone’s names. I still considered myself shy, but I really wasn’t. I wasn’t the bravest little toaster, but I was something between shy and outgoing. I moved out of state, and then back in, and adolescence hit and every conversation I tended to join had the razor sharp reply of “Who Invited You to this conversation?”

Anyway, I digress.

I’m really enjoying conversing. I get in the mood to talk, and strangely the mood to listen follows it. I’m just… so excited. I love hearing Scott’s stories about his mission and his crazy antics with his best friend. I love learning about him.

He asked me to go to his Singles Ward with him. And I really Really REALLY wanted to. So I said sure, and then I remembered that last week I had accepted the calling to help in the Primary. *sighs* So not this week. I thought about asking him to come to my ward, but he also has things to do down there. He takes a co-worker (I think, right?) to his Singles Ward with him. I figure it’s a good thing, and I really don’t want to deprive the guy of his very handsome Church going partner. It’d be selfish of me. So instead I get to go and handle the Sunbeams, and probably eat my words about being patient with kids.

Cause I’m more of the …. Relief Society Teacher type. I’m not very verbose, I’m sure the kids can understand me, but I’m not sure I can handle not having attention paid to me when I speak… *yawns* though I seemed to handle it well enough when none of the Relief Society Ladies seemed to acknowledge that I was speaking. They weren’t so good about making eye contact.

I’m still really nervous about tomorrow. For various reasons. A few things looming over my head. And the incessant fear of how i look when I eat. Maybe Spaghetti wasn’t the best choice for dinner. heh. I’m a noodle slurper. Comes from two years of Ramen Consumption.

Anyway. I need to sleep. Though I’d like to mention that my mom was in the room when we said goodnight. So sadly, I lacked a kiss. 🙁 I understand and all. Mom told me she wished that she had waited for me in the basement– I agreed. *blushes wildly* >_< Alright I better go to sleep before my eyes fall out of my head. Goodnight all you beautiful peoples you 😉

Derringer Meryl [When you smile I melt inside] Out

I didn’t like my last Lyric Spew. Psh. It was stupid. *tosses it out the window* I like this one better. I’m going to do something different this time. The Stuff in italics is my response, as if someone had just said that line to me… *smiles* I won’t do it on all the lines. heh. I was reading through Scott’s Journal and he mentioned this song, so i thought i’d spew it. Just for fun.

First Date, Blink182

In the car I just can’t wait,

to pick you up on our very first date

Is it cool if I hold your hand? Yeah, it is. Go For it. 🙂

Is it wrong if I think it’s lame to dance? No, not really, do you think it’s lame TO dance?

Do you like my stupid hair? I love your stupid hair

Would you guess that I didn’t know what to wear? Never. You look really well put together

I’m too scared of what you think Me too!

You make me nervous so I really can’t eat That’s Scary

Let’s go, don’t wait, this night’s almost over

Honest, let’s make this night last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

When you smile, I melt inside I’m a puddle at your feet

I’m not worthy for a minute of your time I’m thinking the same about you, trust me

I really wish it was only me and you Lets ditch em! Just kidding!

I’m jealous of everybody in the room They know you so well!

Please don’t look at me with those eyes What? These?

Please don’t hint that you’re capable of lies I’m not to you.

I dread the thought of our very first kiss A sort of anxious anticipation. I’ve been worrying too

A target that I’m probably gonna miss Don’t worry, things’ll work out. 🙂

Let’s go, don’t wait, this night’s almost over

Honest, let’s make this night last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Let’s go, don’t wait, this night’s almost over

Honest, let’s make, this night last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Derringer Meryl [Gank!] Out

I’m hoping this link works, for those of you who are very excited at the prospect of me finding someone nice enough to get me a flower.

I think it’s pretty super. Hopefully Geocities will be nice and agree to let you all see it. 🙂

A Flower for me? How sweet! 😀 I’m a freak and I take pictures of my flower. I might have to set up another picture at another server so the whole thing doesn’t cave. 🙂

Incase the first server doesn’t work, like a poo-head cause it’s Geocities (You know i love you Geocities! I know Meryl, I know.) so yeah, Flower again!

Anyway– I’m gonna… go clean heh. and then … I’m gonna go buy some more stuff for tomorrow. 😉 And i’m not wearing mascara.

Derringer Meryl [Here’s Hopin’] Out

I’ve been thinking. Shock, Gasp, horror, yes, thinking. About Scott. First off, I’m not going to mention some of the events of tonight’s chat. And i’m gonna skip them, because I don’t need Apologies for things that don’t need them. Besides, we learned stuff about each other tonight.

Scott likes red, which I should have figured out. I didn’t, because I wasn’t really thinking about it, I guess. He likes the smell of Strawberry Candy (Is listening to Slick Shoes Cover of Candy) and a bunch of other stuff, Mainly this entry is to cover what i’m too chicken to say to him even over IM. Why? Because I’m a geek, and I have problems speaking my mind sometimes.

*coughs* What I find Cute about Scott Please refer to earlier where I say that i use cute instead of all those other words that girls use (ie: Foxy, Hot, sexy… etc.) because I’m, once again, unable to accurately speak my mind at times. 😀

1. His smile. It often reduces me to giggles, which makes my family all turn and look at me like a dork. It’s sorta crooked, but that makes it all the more adorable. He can’t see it, but I”m a pile of goo. (GOO!)

2. His voice. I seriously love to hear him talk. It’s low, but I can always hear what he’s saying, unlike some low talkers I know… Anyway. I love to hear him tell stories. 🙂

3. His hair. It’s all spikey and blonde, and flipped up in the front. Adorable. Makes me smile just thinking about it. *mutters* I’ve often resisted the urge to touch it… *shrugs* I’m an odd girl. I like to ruffle people’s hair

4. The way he rambles when he’s nervous. (Derringer Meryl, striking fear into the hearts of men… heh.) It’s adorable. Makes me smile, yet again.

5. How he admits when he’s said something stupid. Signifying his mistake with the need for a shovel. 🙂 It doesn’t happen often, but at least he’s willing to admit it when he does make a mistake!

Oh My heck– I’m so tired. I promised myself I’d work on homework while I talked to Scott tonight,but I got side tracked. Heh. 🙂

Anyway. I’m tired. You’re probably tired too. That list isn’t done. I could do more, I’m jsut… tired…. Oh.. Okay, so I’ll write more later.

Derringer Meryl [Baby I know I”m a man who’s made mistakes] Out