Undone

Money sucks. A lot. It’s like the uber suckiness of all time. I hate it. I hope it rots and dies, and then I follow there after.

Oh, and in a close second comes college. College sucks ass. The fact you have to pay for books (written by pompous jackasses) pay for classes, pay to park, pay to eat, pay to sleep…. what don’t you have to pay for? Honest. The person who thought that higher education is great, is a complete jackass. I hope to kill him, and follow soon after.

Oh, Right. My family reviewed their monetary standing today, and lets say, we’re standing below the newest Joe Millionare by some degree. *grumbles* I don’t want to go to college (one of the sources of our lack o’money) and i really don’t want to continue my education. For Heavens sakes, i just got done with friggin’ 13 years of education, my brain hurts from all of that, and now, i’m back. For year 14, and i’m tired. I don’t want to do it. I don’t want to go, because my general education requirements are mostly done– like i have four or so credit hours left, and i really don’t want to DO any more. I don’t know what i want to be when i grow up, and i’m not going to know by the beginning of January.

I’ve narrowed it down, lets see… out of everything i could be in the world– I don’t want to be something that involves other people, crowds of people, talking on the phone to people, or touching people. Does that narrow it down for you? I thought it would. So basically, if it’s a job– and it has people there, i don’t want to do it.

I’m pickier than hell.

Derringer Meryl [Suffer Me this] Out

I want to do this and that

Hey, that’s just how girls are

One slip and it’s to hell you go

So you’d better not get in my way

Aren’t lyrics amazing things? I know, i moon over them a lot. but… song is one of the many ways to truely express how you’re feeling. And it just so happens, if you’re feeling one way, someone who has written a song, has felt that way before too. Like the song this is taken from isn’t even in english, that’s the translation! It’s from the opening song to Slayers, a New anime that i’m entranced with…. I know, it’s like i have a new Anime/song each week, but I suppose if I had a new song and Anime to be taken with each week, i’d never waste a minute of my life. 😀

*coughs* Oh, and about Liz Phair’s lyrics. Sometimes the person you decide to …. relate to, has more… emotions to express in a song… than you do. *smiles nicely* I have the confidence to say, there isn’t a person that i’d actually sleep with in the world right now. : Honest.

I’m completely looking forward to seeing Red next week. I don’t know how much time she plans on spending with me, but if anything happens that we can’t, it sure as hell won’t be because i’m blowing her off…. *blinks* That came out wrong. Blah. Basically, i’m setting the whole damn weekend aside, so i can see Red. That’s that. Oh. and If you’re reading this Hun, I have some wicked things we need to do to Monkey. *smirks* secretly of course. It just wouldn’t be as much fun if he did know. 🙂

*sighs* Have i expressed my concern over him? Monkey that is. He worries me, and …. i probably shouldn’t so much. He’s a grown up, and he can take care of himself. I suppose it’s not that that’s bothering me. I know he’s very capable, in fact he’s capable of so much, it’s astonishing. …. I just wonder if he’s keeping to himself too much. I do believe (this is an educated guess. I have no clue really) that his only social outings are his jobs, and Halo night. That’s what really concerns me. BLah. I shouldn’t be so concerned, as i said before, he can take care of himself, quite capably.

I watched Down With Love yesterday, and i admit, it’s quite a catchy movie, and the songs stick in your head in a way, you’re just not prepared for. Not to mention that Ewan McGregor is endlessly hot (the only good thing about the new Star Wars, he is.) and has the kind of blue eyes that make my legs turn to Jello. Reminds me of J…. *sighs*

I don’t want to spoil it, but it ends in a manner you wouldn’t expect from the beginning. It’s amazing. You’ll just die, and I admit,there is quite a bit of innuendo, it’s nothing more than you’d get in a high school class… or like what i got in my first day of art class in Jr. High. Scared the Bejezuz out of me. *shakes her head* Anyway…. Renee Zelweger is refreshing and cute in the part, DHP is extremely funny, much like his role as Niles on Frasier… not to mention the idea of all the women in the world, abstaining/refusing sex in order to get their way to the top, is hillarious… I do believe it’s because it leaves men in a weakened position when they have gone so long without what it seems what men need so badly… allowing for the more stable woman to achieve whatever she wants… Maybe it’s sexual bribery, but, i think the idea is smart anyway– and i have to admit, the music, rocks!!

Anyway, I had better go. i have a small asian child pestering me to play Old Maid with him. I’m not quite sure i remember how it’s played, but i do believe it’s similar to the game I Win as outlined in the movie Big Daddy.

Derringer Meryl [Male Dominated Society?] Out

Another Lyric, that speaks my mind… so you get to hear it in today’s !

Lyric Spew! Liz Phair, Why Can’t I?

Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin’ down the street, and I hardly know you
It’s just like we were meant to be

You might think you know who this song is about. Think again. You’re wrong. I admit, the feelings i’ve been mooning over lately, they’re still there, but– unreturned. I have a chance at something– fantastic, with someone new. I’m reaching for the sky, and i’m not looking back

Derringer Meryl [steppin’ out] Out

More about WCI, just because i was in a hurry before, like a total prat, i didn’t explain where it is, and what not, and why i’dbe going there.

Okay. *sighs* The Culinary (Baking and Pastry in specifics) arts isn’t my first choice in what i wanted to be when i grew up. In fact, it never even came into mind. But more recently, i’ve been a baking fiend. I cook for my co-workers, I cook for their roomates, and i love it. I love to have people eat things i’ve cooked and say it’s good. IT’s a barrel of warm fuzzies, without the hand-holding goodness. Anyway, I want to learn how to do it better, baking and what not that is. Breads, cakes, cookies, the lot. If you can make it in an oven, i want to do it. I’m sorta scared of stoves, so i shy away from that. Heh.

WCI is in Oregon. I can hear Red screaming “OREGON! THAT’S FREAKING ALL THE WAY !!” and so on… but the thing is, they have another branch of the same place in Nevada, and one in Arizona. So I could go more, southernly, and stay near her, 😉

Red should remember that I love her the way she is, and that she doesn’t have to listen to the hellish choir that she is forced to hang out with, she means tons to me, and if she went any further south, i’d cry.

Derringer Meryl [Spike-Obsession] Out

I did it. I finally sent my name into WCI, that is, The Western Culinary Institute. Part of me, despises the idea. I guess that’s why i was so hesitant– because Cooking (with flames and all) doesn’t float my boat. I want to shove some cookies in the oven, and call it good.

anyway, angel– good… must go watch