Undone

Today– I get to experience life as a single teenage mom.

I take that back.

For the last three years I have gotten to experiance life as a single teenage mom.

My nephew is three years old in twenty-three days. I’ve raised him almost from day one. Sure… I have to admit his parents are there, both of them, but at times it felt like it was just me out there. They’d probably kill me if they knew I said that. So I have to give them credit– But i still feel a special bond with my nephew.

He’s one of the cutest you’ll ever see.

I have work tonight, which should be interesting. Not too bad, i hope its slower than molasses in january though, so I don’t have to do much work. It would break my heart to know that I had to leave there.

I hope I find out soon. I couldn’t …. they are some of my best friends. It would be really hard on me to leave. They are the big brothers that I never had… or the extra ones I didn’t know I had.

SOmething like that.

I suppose I should bail and finish getting ready…. but being on here letting all of you people *crickets chirp* that life keeps going.

I got my hair cut err…. butchered. Whichever you like. I swear I don’t think I’ll ever find someone who charges decent and can actually cut hair good. at least my hair. I wouldn’t mind waiting for a little while if It meant getting a quality hair cut.

and this whole “we’ll do it your way’ thing is off it’s rocker. What do I know about hair? NOTHING, why should I tell someone who went to school FOR HAIR what to do with my hair? they know what I look like, and my hair…. sheesh.

DM Out

It’s amazing how certain things can rule your life.

Take sleep for an example. I slept a great deal of yesterday. Of course not before I ran through the rain with no shoes on, and caught a cold more than likely…… I had at least six extra hours of sleep. Isn’t it amazing?

I’ve been catching up on my anime addiction. I’ve gotten to the beginning of the World tournament in Dragon Ball Z. i am so excited for Videl and Gohan. They make an amazing couple, just like Chi Chi and Goku. I can’t wait for little Pan to come along, I wonder how far into the series we can get…..

I’ve watched all of it to this point. I’ve seen some of DB and none of GT. I want to see GT though, It seems quite interesting. Focusing mostly on Vegeta from the looks of it.

If I could date any of the characters (as a rl person) it would have to be Gohan. He’s so much like me, and it would work out perfect… well maybe.

In anycase I’m catching up on my Anime

I also reserved Buffy Second season at my store I happen to be wildly in love with Spike, and this is the first season he appears in. I have the first season of Buffy which I neglected to reserve, but still bought…..

Anyway– I need to go for now, more DBZ for today.

Derringer Meryl Out

I just got done judging Elementary kids debate tournament. They are known only to me as “Children of the Corn”

They scare me.

They used all these words that i need a dictionary to define. I was getting to the point where I was really scared and I hid, and called my guy. I don’t feel like defining what I mean by “My guy” again, so just keep up with me people.

He sorta laughed….. I wasn’t really totally scared, I was… but….

I wasn’t scared for my life, more scared for my intellegence. I’m very sensitive about that. I just need to be smart. I want to feel intelligent. I don’t think insulting other people is right, but I want to do it of my own accord.

He made me feel better, my friend told me my face was red. I believe it.

WHat I can I do? Cause I’m lost inside of you, and that’s what hurts…

DM Out

Today was Model UN. I got insulted. These two representitives from another nation told me because i have an ‘attitude’ that I wanted to be black. I so was very upset. I wanted to gouge his eyes out. I want to kick them in the nuts to no end. that’s life I suppose. I just wanted to sleep. Sleep alot.

I tried to call my guy today, but he wasn’t at work. *sigh* He’s not really MY guy, just …. the guy I like. My object that I aim my affection towards at this point in time.

He has these little dimples…. and he has all of these stories, and when he gets excited when he’s talking…… the light in his eyes dance. I love the way he talks, and he is so very….. just… magic.

I love it– Magic… the only way I can describe it. I want to dream about it. I do dream about it. I’d love to be…. so nice…..

Derringer Meryl Out

After Hours of toiling, I have gotten my layout perfect for this site. I don’t think I’ll ever change this. I love this.

I am very happy.

I am giddy.

I want to skip with glee.

I don’t really know why, other than I’ve been giddy since I talked to HIM today. It was a normal phone call, but it made me feel good, and that’s what matters.

I still fear he’ll find this. But at the same time I don’t care. I don’t care. I just want to dance in the rain. I want to scream from the roof tops! I’m giddy.

I got an Ah my Goddess Manga today. I’ve read it four or five times, just because I love it so much. I want the Miss Keiichi one. I want to buy it… ahhh But I have to pay off my Mom, and various other things. Reserve frome stuff from work… sooooo I want to buy the whole kaboodoole of them.

Cha Cha cha….. Nothing can get me today. Nothin I’m on cloud nine.