Undone

My former teacher issued a challenge to write every day in my blog for the month of november. Well due to the fact that I didn’t blog yesterday (november 2) I’ve failed. DUN DUN DUN! But hey, it’s all for fun, so why not.

Today was pretty chilly on the way to work. I got kicked out of bed by Katie fairly early on. I wish she would give up the paci and sleep with out it.

The view from my window is gorgeous, as usual. Katie had a great halloween, we had fun at a party. I was a bit cranky at the end, and I’m sorry for that. I got to chat with The Specialist’s fiancee, which was nice. I still haven’t met her, and i seem to be the one person in the universe who hasn’t 🙁 It makes me a little sad, but at the same time I have to keep it in check because I have to deal with the consequences of my choices.

I am enjoying the tunes of Hare Hare Yukai. Thinking about all the housework that needs to be done at home. Wishing I were there to do it. LOL that’s sick, right?

I am happy about things, in general. Sure If i could play things out I wish I had done a few things different… but there is no point in wishing for things to be different… You can’t change the past, only the future, and you can only control yourself, no one else. So I will do my best– I will wokr hard to let go of some of the hard feelings in my heart.

Derringer Meryl [So this is growing up] Out

I didn’t like my last Lyric Spew. Psh. It was stupid. *tosses it out the window* I like this one better. I’m going to do something different this time. The Stuff in italics is my response, as if someone had just said that line to me… *smiles* I won’t do it on all the lines. heh. I was reading through Scott’s Journal and he mentioned this song, so i thought i’d spew it. Just for fun.

First Date, Blink182

In the car I just can’t wait,

to pick you up on our very first date

Is it cool if I hold your hand? Yeah, it is. Go For it. 🙂

Is it wrong if I think it’s lame to dance? No, not really, do you think it’s lame TO dance?

Do you like my stupid hair? I love your stupid hair

Would you guess that I didn’t know what to wear? Never. You look really well put together

I’m too scared of what you think Me too!

You make me nervous so I really can’t eat That’s Scary

Let’s go, don’t wait, this night’s almost over

Honest, let’s make this night last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

When you smile, I melt inside I’m a puddle at your feet

I’m not worthy for a minute of your time I’m thinking the same about you, trust me

I really wish it was only me and you Lets ditch em! Just kidding!

I’m jealous of everybody in the room They know you so well!

Please don’t look at me with those eyes What? These?

Please don’t hint that you’re capable of lies I’m not to you.

I dread the thought of our very first kiss A sort of anxious anticipation. I’ve been worrying too

A target that I’m probably gonna miss Don’t worry, things’ll work out. 🙂

Let’s go, don’t wait, this night’s almost over

Honest, let’s make this night last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Let’s go, don’t wait, this night’s almost over

Honest, let’s make, this night last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Forever and ever, let’s make this last forever

Derringer Meryl [Gank!] Out

I have to lyric spew this. I love this song, and in the silence of the night, i’m falling in love with it. It’s more beautiful than anything I can think of.

I Miss You, Blink182

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare

The shadow in the background of the morgue

The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want

Where you can always find me

We’ll have Halloween on Christmas

And in the night we’ll wish this never ends

We’ll wish this never ends

(I miss you I miss you)

(I miss you I miss you)

Where are you and I’m so sorry

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness

Comes creeping on so haunting every time

And as I stared I counted

Webs from all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

and hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight

Stop this pain tonight

Don’t waste your time on me you’re already

The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don’t waste your time on me you’re already

The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don’t waste your time on me you’re already

The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

Don’t waste your time on me you’re already

The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

Derringer Meryl [Loving what is sang to me] Out

Today, I’ve decided to steal my entry from my brother and post the same lyrics as he did. It’s odd that we’re seven years apart, and going through the same thing. heh. It’s great.

right then, Lyrics are Damnit by Blink182 Enjoy 🙂

It’s alright to tell me what you think about me

I won’t try to argue or hold it against you

I know that you’re leaving you must have your reasons

The season is calling and your pictures are falling down

The steps that I retrace a sad look on your face

The timing and structure did you hear he fucked her?

A day late a buck short I’m writing the report

I’m losing and failing when I move I’m flailing now

And it’s happened once again

I’ll turn to a friend

Someone that understands

Sees through the master plan

But everybody’s gone

And I’ve been here for too long

To face this on my own

Well I guess this is growing up

Well I guess this is growing up

And maybe I’ll see you at a movie sneak preview

You’ll show up and walk by on the arm of that guy

And I’ll smile and you’ll wave we’ll pretend it’s okay

The charade it won’t last when he’s gone I won’t come back

And it’ll happen once again

You’ll turn to a friend

Someone that understands

And sees through the master plan

But everybody’s gone

And you’ve been there for too long

To face this on your own

Well I guess this is growing up

Well, I guess this is growing up [4x]

Well, I guess this is growing up

Derringer Meryl [I hate growing up] Out