Undone

It’s amazing, how everything can go so wrong–

and in the end turn out so right!

So last night was Winter Ball a little less dressy than prom, but still a nice dance. It was girls choice (lucky for me) and so I took a really good friend of mine. He’s a super guy, ad when I mean super, I mean he’s all around the best guy I know.

Really.

He’s super sweet, and even though we’re not really romantically attatched, he made me feel like a princess all night long. I was super excited to go with him, cause (lest I rave on more) he’s a great guy and (whispers to reader) I really like him, but I’m trying to not get attatched, because he’s leaving on his mission soon. *nods*

We danced to a song, that I used to hate. It was the first song I ever slow danced to, and that was unfortunately with my ex. Without delving into too much detail about my ex, he was a jerk. Last night, none of it was about spite, or to get over him, or because I had to– It was all about having fun, and hanging out…..

And slow dancing with one of the most charming, handsome, and dashing guys ever.

I think i’ll just have to write him a letter. He really– I mean… WOW. It meant something to me– it may have just been in the school commons area (If you don’t know what a commons is, ask me, I’ll tell ya later) but It seemed like I was in a magical place.

I was smiling for real again.

I haven’t smiled for real since the sixth grade. Have you ever had those smiles that are so big, and so genuine that it hurts your face? I have. I haven’t smiled like that in so long– I’d forgotten the feeling.

I was giddy. LIke real giddy. Not emotional rollercoaster girl because I wasn’t trying to cover it up– what ever I was feeling. I felt real. I loved it.

I wouldn’t have been able to have had that much fun with anyone else (at this point in time). I’m so glad it all worked out so well. I love being able to feel all of this emotion again. I’d really forgotten what it was like.

I didn’t even want to kiss him or anything. I just wanted to dance, and to smile, and to skate, and to spend all my time with him.

Because he makes me real again.

Derringer Meryl [I hope you had the time of your] Out