Undone

Can I say that this is friggin’ Insane? Well, the thing is, you get an email your box. It says that someone likes you, then you have to give out all these email addys to find out who it is.

Wanna know the kicker? YOU DON’T GET TO FIND OUT UNLESS YOU GUESS THEM

Good ness friggin’ gracious. I would hope, that someone could tell me, though email if needed, PLAIN AND SIMPLE that they like me, instead of me needing to scrounge for emails.

Who ever this person is, they have a friggin’ bachelors. Who Likes me that has a bachelors? I’m sorry, you can do better than me, I’m fairly sure.

On a lighter (i think) note, i went to the doctors today. Okay so maybe this isn’t a lighter note, but I felt all woozy and flustered at school today, so I went home, and then my mom checked my Blood pressure and pulse, and they were crazy. My resting heart rate was 110. I don’t remember my blood pressure, but it ended me up at the doctors getting an EKG. I really don’t know what that is, but it isn’t happy things.

So, I spent the day asleep after that. Why? Cause It felt good! AHA! I don’t know if I”m going to school tomorrow, more than likely yes, and it’s no fun, I can’t… my heart feels funny a lot of the time. I don’t like it.

I decided that I hit a new low with my obsession with *ahem* I’m trying to stop thinking about HIM, and I’m doing better. That’s all I have to say about that.

I don’t feel well

I’m tired

I programmed an entire website tonight.

I’m done

Derringer Meryl [She did Ballet] Out

So it’s been a while, I’m sorry. I really am. But no worries, I’ve been writing everyday at school, in my book.

I’m sure you’re thrilled. I know I am. *smiles* Umm… Let’s see. Oh I know.

Work- I got (braces herself) screwed over at work. I lost $150 dollars thanks to the help of a short change artist. *THP, and raspberries* That just proves me right, you can’t trust people with mullets. (J/k) lets see, what else.

I had a horrid cold last week, it was not so fun, I still have it now, but that’s my own fault, some how.

I got a new favorite song. *smiles* Sk8er boy By Avril Lavigne. I love it. I love the parody that my friend wrote to it. It’s all good.

What else…. Ummm.

School blows. I’m praying everyday that someone won’t find this like after I’ve killed every annoying person at school, which is basically all of them. INCLUDING MY GYM TEACHER!

What is the point of having Gym count towards Graduation. If it wasn’t for that flipping class, I’d be scott free. I hate it. I hate gym. I hate PE, I hate the idea of being graded for how physically fit I am. That’s stupid. Back in the good days they’d just give you a period of time to run and play. It was called Recess. For those of you who are still fortunate enough to have Recess, ENJOY IT. Soon enough you’ll have GYM where you have to run the mile and crappy things like that. Or possibly you’ll have to lift weights. *growls* I HATE GYM!!!!

Soon I’ll get around to fixing this page up again (IE changing this page.) and then It’ll be all pretty. 🙂

Anyway, I’m out for a while.

Derringer Meryl [Underneath It all] Out

This is to say

I’m tired–

And thats about it for right now.

I’m going to do it. See ya later Boy

He was a boy, she was a girl

Can I make it anymore obvious?

He was a punk,she did ballet

What more can I say?

He wanted her, she’d never tell

secretly she wanted him as well.

But all of her friends stuck up there nose

they had a problem with his baggy clothes.

He was a skater boy, she said see ya later boy

he wasn’t good enought for her

She had a pritty face, but her head was up in space

she needed to come back down to earth.

five years from now, she sits at home

feeding the baby

she’s all alone

she turns on tv

guess who she sees

skater boy rockin’ up MTV.

she calles up her friends,they already know

and they’ve all got tickets to see his show

she tags along and stands in the crowd

looks up at the man that she turned down.

He was a skater boy,she said see ya later boy

he wasn’t good enought for her

now he’s a super star

slamin’ on his guitar

does your pritty face see what he’s worth?

sorry girl but you missed out

well tuff luck that boys mine now

we are more than just good friends

this is how the story ends

too bad that you couldn’t see

see that man that boy could be

there is more that meets the eye

I see the soul that is inside

He’s just a boy, and i’m just a girl

can I make it anymore obvious?

we are in love, haven’t you heard

how we rock eachothers world

I’m with the skater boy, I said see ya later boy

i’ll be back stage after the show

i’ll be at a studio

singing the song we wrote

about a girl you used to know

Avril Lavigne, Skater Boy

Derringer Meryl [I said see ya later boy] Out

And this one time……

I remember that i was taking piles of work out, and he handed me some…. and …. our hands brushed. It was like time slowed down. I miss that.

I suppose I should review life. Work, is great. I love my co-workers. I need to generate more bussiness. If we don’t….. then …. no hours=no money=sad me.

I’m still groaning and moaning about the total moron that is me. For the fool I made of myself.

All life is now is school and work….. and work used to include him. and now it doesn’t. life seems empty. Ya know? it was like I’d look forward to going because… he’d be there, or I could maybe see him, or be some where he was that day.

And now. it’s empty, and cold. and filled with organization, and memorization…. and blah

Feeling the adoration of the rain we’ve been having. He used to tell me when it rained “I love the rain. I love the way it smells, and the way it looks, and I love being in it….” It was…. nice.

The rain reminds me.

Derringer Meryl [Remember Me, Ever so softly] Out