Undone

Hello again

My little friend

I did it again, Why?

Cause I thought that I deserved a chance. I muttered something about Pancakes and gardinias today while at work (not working just chilling) but nothing was said.

I hope the rain didn’t mess up the note I left.

If it didn’t– here goes.

I like you. I really like you. I’m supremely unsure of what you’re thinking more than most of the time.

Anyway, If you go back and read through my entries, that becomes evident.

If you don’t know what to day, that’s easy. Just slip me the secret password……

Pancakes taste good with Gardinias.

And all will be good. I’ll know you know…. and You will know that I know. Then my mind can go and rest in peace.

Derringer Meryl [Rest in peace] Out

Just as an update

Nothing,

at all

happened

last night.

Derringer Meryl Out

So Ummm..

Lets update on what’s happened

I still haven’t’ seen him

My Best friend moved in with me (That’s a good thing, other wise I’d call her something horribly mean, and thus give you the impression she wasn’t my best friend…. yeah. anyway.)

I have work tonight– With him, should be interesting.

It won’t be too bad. He’ll just either say the line or not. Chances are taht he didn’t even get my little note, and i’ll be fine.

Right?

I got a new shirt for school. It’s super cute, I call it my Willow shirt. Yes Willow from BtVS. Yes she’s a lesbian, but she has the whole magick thing going for her, and that’s what I mean. That the shirt is magical, very pretty, as well as green.

I’m a little tired, oh okay, a lot tired. I have to go get ready for work (have to look pretty, pretty sells stuff) and do a bunch of stuff to get ready……

Like puke my guts out of my nose. that should be interesting.

I’ll write more once I know more, I should also update my little imood thing. Imood.com is the best little place ever. I love it. You can read my entry and at the bottom my emotion sums it all up. it’s good.

Umm. Yeah.

i’m nervous.

Derringer Meryl [We are all just Prisoners here Of our own device] Out

*sigh*

Sigh is all there is to say. I’m irritable and mean and ….

Hopeless. Simply hopeless. Just like all those Disney characters you see, that become attached to the hero….

cept I don’t have one really.

I can see myself now, like five (or less) years from now being proposed to. I say no, and it won’t end like it does in Anne of Green Gables, he won’t wait for me, won’t wait for me, he’ll move on and find some girl who’ll say yes, and never look back.

No one waits in this day and age.

Why?

Why can’t someone say, “I’ve loved you since the day I met you, and i’ve tried to move on, but… .I know that we’re really meant to be.”

I”m like Anne, I can’t really think of anyone I like that way. No one I can imagine myself spending the rest of my life with

Not to mention eternity.

And it saddens me, because i don’t have a Gill Blythe who will wait for me while I philander around the world, because the boys now days are too fickle. People have a hard time staying together for the time allotted on earth, not to mention forever.

Everyone is Fickle. Everyone.

Even me. But I know that I don’t love anyone right now. I know that i think people are foxy *drools*

Anyway.

I should sleep, I’m getting sicker each night I go to sleep later and later.

Please. I beg. Sadly I beg, Just tell me this “Pancakes and Gardinias Taste good together”

Derringer Meryl [I’m lying here on the floor where you left me]