Undone

What can I say

to sooth the mistakes

that i’ve made

no words

come to me

they all seem to

fly away

and everytime

you want to talk

i know it means

another fight

i’ve learned by now

to sit and take it

because…

because…

talking only makes

the knife sink deeper in

causing the pain to grow

deeper in everyway.

and i love you so much

i can’t stand

to do that to you

not after

all you’ve been through

and so i retreat

only understanding now

that i began this all

started the pain…

and i can’t fix it

I can’t make it better

but I want to

want to close

the large cavern

that i made between us

and — each time i hurt you

you hurt me alittle too

i can’t blame you

simple defense

and so, i go away

to gather my thoughts

lick my wounds

and he cares for me

while i heal

and i don’t know how

to explain the friendship

we now have.

This is why

i can’t be happy

it only hurts those

whom i love

hold dear

near to my heart

i would suffer

a thousand deaths

if not to see you smile.

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Red and I are semi-ly having another fight. These are all the things I wish I could have said. But I didn’t…. because well… it’s in the poem. You dig?

Derringer Meryl [lost] Out