May
06
2004
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I wouldnt wish this on my enemies

So my arm, my right arm to be exact, is in extreme pain. I haven’t felt this much pain in my arm since I got it popped out of the socket. Yesterday the pain was just in the shoulder, now the pain has oozed its way down to the mid part of my back on the right side, and down into my elbow. Makes it hard to type, and grasp… and… do anything actually.

It hurt to grab the shifter in my car today.

*sighs* here I go with the mixed emotions on my mom coming home. I’m really excited that she’s coming home, and that she’s gonna be back (really excited, I hope she gets home on Friday instead of Saturday.) Her little trips make me appreciate her more every time. I’ve been doing the dishes and stuff, and that’s hard. Very hard. Dax has been trying to help me with stuff, and I appreciate it, but Im just getting exhausted all together.

and Ihave this butt monkey of a cold too. I think it’s a cold. Who knows. Ear ache and Sore throat. Major serious drainage issues down my throat. (Gross, I know) Swallowing causes extreme and utter pain. (Not unlike moving my arm)

I sleep and I sleep and I sleep, and I’m still exhausted. Always. I think because sleeping causes me pain too. I sleep on my shoulder funny, and thus the ouch-ness. I’m gonna go take some Aleve (or however you spell the wonderful fixer upper.)

Derringer Meryl [insane kind of exquisite torture] Out

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May
05
2004
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telling my whole life with his words

Everyone else is talking about their chinese Zodiac (Sukie and Antigone) and I want to be in with the in crowd, so here I go.

People born in the Year of the Rat are noted for their charm and attraction for the opposite sex. They work hard to achieve their goals, acquire possessions, and are likely to be perfectionists. They are basically thrifty with money. Rat people are easily angered and love to gossip. Their ambitions are big, and they are usually very successful. They are most compatible with people born in the years of the Dragon, Monkey, and Ox.

Scott’s the year of the Dog. I read through the profile and I don’t really think that’s him… but this one about me, seems spot on. I’m a perfectionist. I admit it. If I can’t do it the right way, all the way, then I don’t want to do it at all. It’s not very often I’m willing to compromise my achievements. I’m very thrifty. I like to dream about what i could spend my money on, but i’m usually very hesitant to spend a large amount of money (Large amount read: anything over twenty bucks) I am easily angered, and I love to talk about others. :S it’s a bad thing, I know. I really try to overcome it. 🙁 i’m not a very good example. *smacks her head*

I don’t know how successful I am, I tend to stick by the way side for some things. I want to own my own magazine (like make it and stuff, I own a ton of magazines someone else produced) that’s designed for girl gamers. I don’t think i’ll make it rich off of it… but I”m tired of getting EGM’s (I think it’s them) girls from games in bikini’s issue. I don’t like to look at that. 🙁 Gack.

On a completely unrelated note, i’ve caught myself a nasty little cold. I feel like there’s a horrible little monster poking about in my ear (ear aches are special things) and my throat is horrible. I’ve not had a sore throat this bad since I was in the eighth grade. No joke. My glands are swollen to the point you can see them sticking out of my neck (ouch btw) and they are so tender. 🙁 *sighs*

Today is the day Scott and I normally spend all day together. But it got switched around so that it’s tomorrow he has off. 🙂 I’m done with school (hurrah!) and i’m exhausted. my throat is killing me softly with it’s saw… (hee hee, just kiddin’) In anycase, i’m out.

Derringer Meryl [Killing me softly with his song] Out

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Apr
24
2004
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Telling the truth in nowheresville

Scott’s sick…. Poor Kid… He really should be at home asleep. Seeings as how he’s diabetic and his immune system is more sensitive and what not. He needs more sleep than the average bear to get better. I’ve been trying to do better about keeping him at home lately.

And then his friends ask him to go play D&D. I love D&D, it’s fun to do and you get to act all in whacky ways you couldn’t in real life. Still. It runs late and he’s already sick. I like healthy fiancee’s. Not sick ones. (I mean, I still love him and what not… but he’s sick and should be at home sleeping.

It makes me very VERY angry that Mandarin would do something like ask him to play when he’s sick. They know him better than I do, and they know that when he’s sick he should be sleeping. All he’s going to be doing AT D&D is sleeping until they need him and then waking him up to help out.

Good Grief. I worry SO Much about his health. It’s scary for me. I know how easily diabetics get sick (my mom is one) it’s scary for me because I love him so much, and i worry that he’ll get really sick.

I guess it’s selfish for me to love him this much.

Derringer Meryl [Cover Up] Out

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Feb
20
2004
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sick is as sick does

i changed out of my sick clothes to go to work last night. I inform you now that I am firmly back in them. i’ve been throwing up again (i’m sure you wanted to know) and i still feel pretty ookie. I didn’t feel as wiped out this time. It was almost like my stomach said “What are you doing? You fed me too much, especially since we’re sick!” and spewed up any extra stuff. Not everything, just extra.

Part of me says “YOu should take some kind of medicine, it’ll help” and another part says “You can do it without it!” and i’m just left here wondering, Sure I can do it by myself, no doubt.

The question is, will i feel better by tomorrow?

I shouldn’t have gone to work last night. the extensive stress put on me there wasn’t very helpful. I wasn’t very helpful. I was sick. I sat on the counter, and wished for sleep.

the thing is, i’m one of those “sleep laying down” people, and when i feel like this, I only feel okay sitting up (not standing though, whoo boy, bad idea.) I’m hoping that if i turn on some Slayers while the kids are gone I can catch a few z’s in the recliner.

I’m thinking sitting here and typing isn’t helping either. So… I’m gonna go … lay down. Er… whatever.

Derringer Meryl [Urk] Out

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Feb
19
2004
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And so, I am

Since Yahoo Messenger is being a poo, and won’t let me on so I can message Scott, i’ll just cut to the chase and put up here why i wasn’t on yesterday.

I caught the flu. Yep. Or something VERY akin. There was some not so fun aching and coughing and throwing-up involved. I’m just happy it happened after monday but before saturday. I’m feeling loads better, and I got a blessing from Dax and my oldest brother. I slept a lot, expended a lot of my energy by walking to and from the bathroom. I began to feel just tads better around eleven, but by that time i felt good enough that i could sleep. I even slept on the couch last night because i was tired of walking into my door. Yeah. Walking into my door because i’m used to sleeping with my door open, and I ran smack into it at least twice trying to make it to the bathroom. It wasn’t so much fun. I’m going to stay home from school today I think, because all i have in my stomach is two pieces of toast with peanut butter on them. I might go make myself some more in a minute….

*smiles* the greatest thing that happened yesterday is that while I was laying on my mom’s bed, slightly dozing, she came to me and said “Have you read Scott’s Journal Today?” To which I responded “No, have you seen me go downstairs?” I was tired, and feeling a little snippity. No excuse all the same. She said to me “Do you want me to go and print it off so you can read it?” and I said “Yeah” so she did, like a good mommy would. Of course… she didn’t cut and paste, like i would have, and so the edges got cut off, but she was pretty good at filling what was cut off in. She even read it to me.

What a nice mommy I have. 🙂 Especially since i had her running all over yesterday to help me feel better. For that matter I sorta had Dax doing a lot for me too. 😀 Anyway, I haven’t emailed my teachers telling them sorry for being absent and what not… so I better go do that. Can you imagine i spent all that time writing that stupid essay and then was too sick to turn it in!? How outrageous!

Derringer Meryl [Uhg, I need to get better] Out

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