Undone

I worry about the new situation that’s going on here. (check darthyoshi.com under today’s Journal) First off, I worry about Scott and his best friend. I don’t want to cause any tension, and I think all of the me-causing-tension-ness is gone, now it’s like it’s still there, it’s just for a different reason.

Nextly, I’m still getting over my own stupid jealous things. *raises her hands up to still the oncoming rush of comments or thoughts* I said I was okay with it, because I should be, and this weaker part of me is being stupid. Very stupid, and not putting faith in God, not to mention Scott. I’ve always been a very jealous person (see previous vat fights, and outright verbal arguments) I need to get over that. I am getting over that. I guess i’m pulling a “fake it till you make it” thing.

Oh, and I will make it.

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